It's been great with you. I've been depressed and struggling with self esteem issues since I was a child and after this whole therapy thing I don't see the point in living anymore.
I'm going to keep it straight with you chief, no one does. Life requires most to make or find that purpose, you never know what you will find or what purpose will find you in the coming years. But you 100% know the alternative would deny you any future satisfaction.
Quintasia came into my life during a period when I was convinced that nobody will ever love me and that I will be feeling empty for the rest of my life. She popped in and caressed my head and told me she loves me in a motherly voice. She treated me like an attractive and decent valuable person and gave me worth and a reason to live. I now had something to live for, my wife and my kid. We're going to be a family.
You took a loss, brush it off and get up.
This newfound emphasis on family, do you really want one right now with what's all going on with you? If she had stayed you'd have suffered worse, actually having that family then having it fall apart in front of you while being chained to it for life.
Take this time to strengthen, hone and improve yourself for your future family. Keep taking that initiative and going to therapy so that you can be the strongest pillar you can be for your family.
Due to my own defectiveness I made her stop loving me and made her go back to the US. I am worse than I was before. I came to the realization that whoever loves me will see who I really am and ditch me for someone better. I will never be happy or have a family.
Don't wallow and indulge in self pity like this, it's addictive as the worst of drugs. You don't like aspects about yourself, actually take the steps to change them. It isn't impossible, it just isn't fun.
I made this thread to apologize to everyone who I've hurt and mistreated in many ways over the course of 6 years. I want you to know that I did it to unload my own pain and cope with my anger at life in general. You are all good people who were hurt in different ways and you deserve to be happy. Hope everything will work out for you. It did not me for.
I love you guys. See you in hell.
Typically, I absolutely despise people that have your perks Jim and yet, through the years I found myself making exception after exception for you. I thought about that while back and it's because you have potential. You know where you need to go sultan, take those steps
I am with you, even unto the end of the age
