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on one hand, you seem to acknowledge the negativity in your mind

on the other hand, you seem run away from it

where to? Where will you run to? 
it doesn’t come from outside. It’s in there. Right with you, wherever you go

your last paragraph makes me pity you. I hope you stop wallowing in self pity. You don’t need to believe in anything bigger than life. Believe in yourself. Be the father you never had.

My uplifting the mood is a gift and youre looking at it like peasants look at a great mighty horse and think "hmm, horse meat yummy". 

You know nothing about that which I speak of.

You could have just said: You know nothing about which I speak. You could have also said: You know nothing about that which I speak. :)

Jada said: 

My mind seems to constantly go to a dark place where it seems like there is nothing good out there. 

Time for vacation maybe. 

Honestly negativity takes a toll on me. I can pretend it doesnt but even when I get into fights here I feel drained after a while. Not sure how you all stand it. Im by nature a cheerful person but that life force is apparently easy to suck from me.

Something in or around you needs to change. 

Internet trolls are the ones who suffer the most. They spread all of that negativity because they're hooked on it, like its a dopamine rush for them. I imagine at the end of the day they feel empty because negative energy is not fulfilling in the same way making someone happy is. Whats their work worth really, besides spreading their pain around like its nutella?

They're motivated by their state of being where they feel the need to bring others down to match their own frequency. 

Logged into Reddit earlier this year and since I couldn't change my name I created a new account. ( They do this thing where we have a limited time to create a name after they generate one for us. )

I firmly believe Reddit is the most toxic forum on the face of the Earth. They have a Karma system and while I don't care about it, I had a hell of a time building some Karma just so I can create a post on some subreddit in was interested in. 

What happens on there are complete strangers will take jabs at you, then downvote you in swarms no matter what you say, they have subscribers or followers who will come along and also knock your Karma down while upvoting one another. 

They way I built Karma on there, I just found another subreddit that kinda touched this very subject, mentioned my current experience on the platform why I'm posting there, and I vowed to never take part in those toxic groupthink parties where they follow one another for the sake of destroying people while giving one another merit. In came the likes and I got the Karma I needed to finally post on the subreddit I wanted to participate in. Funny enough that same reddit got shut down by it's own moderator, maybe cause I might have made people with high karma feel uncomfortable. Not like I was claiming anyone with high Karma obtained it in that manner but maybe this moderator did. Who knows. 

When I was able to create posts, I ended up kinda attacking Electronic Arts. Told them they are doing the greed thing wrong, and it was a mistake to shut down Anthem. Sure 5-6 million or so players isn't the majority of your gamer base, but it's going to be them, plus other gamers who'll see what you've done and you'll get boycotted. 

They did this at a time where the Saudi's ( PIF ) bought them out the whole stock market and took the company private, so now they are in debt massive debt. Right now EA is in trouble as we speak, all they have to do is stop pissing off their customers. Do NOT shut down IP's but rather toss it to the dogs and say, go on make your own servers, and we totally will. 

They will probably get economically bailed out cause EA does make some of the most popular video games, especially when it comes to sports, but damn. A lot of gamers aren't impressed with them at the moment. 

Even though I wrote about how they're screwing themselves, I still got attacked by what appeared to be mindless entities. Maybe it had to do with my low karma points, or no followers, I really don't know, I imagine that's how they measure one another on there. They never beat me down, I achieved what I wanted, and I care not for Karma on that platform. 

Its hard to force yourself from a negative mindset into a positive one. Its easier to just wallow in self pity. I think those who do get themselves back up have some meaning they derive in their lives. You have to believe in something bigger than life.

 It's easy once you've done it before. It's all a matter of understanding why they do it, which I mentioned, and it really doesn't have anything to do with you. They're going to do it anyway so it's really nothing personal. 

People who are happy in life don't run around looking to stir shit. So yes they are empty of something good, to say the least while having no shortage of negativity. When those types come at you, it's because they want some form of control, but in truth your feedback matters enough to them so they can manage their mood. Eventually they start to starve when you don't give them what they want. Sometimes they melt down or fade away. What remains isn't all that different than before. You're a better contributor, more liked and appreciated, while the aggressor goes down and takes those attached to them with them. 

Everything you need is already set in stone. 

whatever you do,

ignore tony. 

because his main goal is to feel important and smart. 

he’s using you to feel relevant. 

he doesn’t actually care about you. 

The issue I see with you, is that your trying to be nice to people seems super fake when compared to moments you're sparked into actual discussions. 

Perhaps you're more naturally a negative person. 

Something in or around you needs to change.

Both. 

I'm surrounded by negative people and burning on diesel fuel.

The reason stopping me from seeking change is that I feel "guilty" in the Christian sense. I have weak people in the literal sense relying on me and the weight of the responsibility is what is stopping me from seeking real change. 

Its trying to force change around me that's burning my energy. 

They're motivated by their state of being where they feel the need to bring others down to match their own frequency.

That's a good summary. Its all about refusal to celebrate people's successes due to their own shortcomings.

And yes reddit is toxic. Not all subreddits, there are a few decent ones like slatestarcodex, ever heard of that one? They have these wholesome wellness Wednesdays and gatherings, and most members try to be decent.

I dont know much about EA, I stopped playing video games ten years ago. Last I played was Jedi Knight Jedi Academy. That game was a masterpiece. I sunk so many hours into it.

It's easy once you've done it before. It's all a matter of understanding why they do it, which I mentioned, and it really doesn't have anything to do with you. They're going to do it anyway so it's really nothing personal.

I made a post about this a long time ago on Robert's forum about how understanding someone is the prerequisite to forgiveness.

Theres not just the understanding of the negative person though. Our brains are wired based on our interactions. When spending time wiring your brain for positive interactions, its easier to think of wholesome things and to see the light in your surroundings. Vice versa if your day is shaped around negative interactions most actions get tied to negative connotations and thoughts. Its also about the diet our brain gets. That's why Ive always been a believer in positive thoughts and attitude.

People who are happy in life don't run around looking to stir shit. So yes they are empty of something good, to say the least while having no shortage of negativity. When those types come at you, it's because they want some form of control, but in truth your feedback matters enough to them so they can manage their mood. Eventually they start to starve when you don't give them what they want. Sometimes they melt down or fade away. What remains isn't all that different than before. You're a better contributor, more liked and appreciated, while the aggressor goes down and takes those attached to them with them.

Everything you need is already set in stone.

So disconnect selectively. Maybe I need to be more mindful of that.

leggasucks said: 

whatever you do,

 

ignore tony. 

because his main goal is to feel important and smart. 

he’s using you to feel relevant. 

he doesn’t actually care about you. 

Not really.

Turncoat said: 

The issue I see with you, is that your trying to be nice to people seems super fake when compared to moments you're sparked into actual discussions. 

Perhaps you're more naturally a negative person. 

Ive tried to be nice to you. Maybe its the effort required, given your attitude toward it, that comes across as fake. Its like something in you is unable to appreciate it, preferring hostile interactions. 

Ive thought more than once that itd be nice to have the old TC back who wasnt a total asshole, and tried to guide interactions with you in that direction. You have no idea how resistant you are to that. Or maybe you do.

You could have just said: You know nothing about which I speak. You could have also said: You know nothing about that which I speak. :)

True but it would not of been as humorous.

Jada said: 

My uplifting the mood is a gift and youre looking at it like peasants look at a great mighty horse and think "hmm, horse meat yummy". 

You know nothing about that which I speak of.

 This is too verbose to come across as only a joke.