To go to shock adversion therapy to turn me straight
I don't want that. My father found out Lauren is my girlfriend, and I don't know what to do.
They are so pushy about it. But I am being told if I do it my dad will trust me enough to teach me how to drive if I do it and I don't have anyone to teach me.
He also told me he'll finally help me with college matters
But that I can't use his GI bill to boost my education unless I do this.
This GI bill could be good for us.
I don't want to be shocked I think that would really hurt
But I finally have someone offering to be a guide in my life for once and I just feel so lost and confused and I have never had that
I finally have someone offering to show some interest in me and help me
What do I do?
I've been distressed my experiments are repeated disasters I mean usually, I'm more careful
And my writing has been more violent lately even for me and so has my art
I don't know.
I have been doing to much weed too but, I'm just really stressed out. Our apartment is a mess. I'm a mess. Why am I so lost? I wish I had something to follow but I never did.
Maybe I never deserved it. Maybe my dad is right. Maybe there is something wrong with me.
At least he doesn't know the way I feel about animals. I would be more than willing to get shock therapy for that.
Not this though.
The way I love Lauren doesn't feel wrong to me at all.
That's the only thing I've ever really done right.
I just want to learn and he wants to show me? He never has before
He's finally offering me what I always wanted
