Emotions are intuitive and serve as indicators. If something is cringy, avoid it instead of filling up your head with garbage.
Tolerance. It's good when beneficial, but increase it for something like cringe will mean you're willing to fill your head with more shit than it already has for the sake of enjoyment. You can say evil loves tolerance, because it allows controversy.
Personally I think pride is eating you alive. Too much swapping good for bad and bad for good with no motivation to change will have you cringing at what maintains piece of mind.
Here's what to do....
Put out an ad to be a personal tour guide for LGBTQ people.....
They will contact you, and when they come to the city you will suggest places and things for them to do. You are street smart, and you can take them to the gay bars or events and places. Fine dining etc. If you get good at this, you can make deals with restaurants and get some kind of kickback for every soul you bring, or, discount your clients.
Accommodate their requests or they'll leave it up to you. They may tell you what they want to see or experience or you can plan out a course of what your city offers. And of course you get paid. For you I would recommend cash payment, but that doesn't always work out when it comes to these things. A crypto option is good, accept only BTC, ETC and any stablecoin such as USDT and USDC. Your job is to keep them safe as well, not as a security guard but as someone who will show them a good time out of harm's way. It's why they'll be contacting you in the first place.
You know your city, you know what it has to offer.
Better if you have a car, but this guy I know who is a homosexual and does this doesn't even drive.
Why does this work for LGBTQ people specifically ?
You do any kind of business with gay people, and they will show up. Your phone might even be ringing off the hook. They like to take part in things that makes them visible, go to places where everyone is expected to be gay.
You don't have much, so when you bring them to places to dine, you'll wait outside. If they invite you to join them tell them you have a lot of debt. That way you'll either wait outside, or they'll feed you too. When you do have money, get something cheap, plus if the venue knows you and sees what you're doing, they'll make sure you're eating for cheap. Even if a place doesn't want to do business with you, let them know what you're doing and they'll begin to respect you.
You'll begin to feel good about yourself. You'll have clients, and meet a lot of homos. Some will want to be your friend. You might even find love. You'll become valued by local businesses and they will call you, Nathan.
Find your price, but know who you're up against and match their pricing. 3 digits max. For $700 you can feed and transport them. Movie or some gallery or place. and keep the rest. You do not pay for hotels, unless they want that deal, it'll be a lot more, though that's something they can do on their own. You will handle the Uber. Know your local museum or art gallery. via the internet. Answer their questions, so only show them things you know well. Entertain them with stories that happened. Learn about the ghost stories, spooking them once will only make the day delightful no matter if it creeps them out or not.
If you get a client that wants you to guide a bus load of people. Take it. That is a jackpot. You will then rent a bus with a driver. Maybe for 500 to 800 a day. You wouldn't have the mindset for this, unless you did the smaller tours first.
So you see Nathan. All you need is a piece of mind. A reason to give yourself a pat on the back. Don't worry if it will make you rich, just focus on the experience. After awhile you can do more daring things that might cost more, you'll have the cash to patch it up if need be, but when you do that, just mention you'll take it off of your commission. You'll score a positive review.
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I once worked in this building and down the hall there was a guy who had a dying photography business. He converted his office into a gallery of photos in frames and sold them for a high price as though he were selling paintings.
He would have themed events and it was nothing. Space, the ocean, science fiction.
He then did a gay event where his photography was geared toward queer people. Boom
The place was so loaded, there was a large crowd of gay people mingling and having a lovely time in the front of the building while his gallery was loaded to the brim. I said large crowd and they were chirping like birds. Not only does the LGBTQ show up, but they show off by spending money.