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Chapo said: 

I lived in an rv park for like 4 or 5 months, it was actually pretty great. Definitely a fun period of time. There was a separate bathroom area and I remember fucking in it for like 20 minutes and then when we were done we heard someone turn on water and talk out loud about nothing but they definitely heard us. The rv had a tv and a great music system and a microwave and basically we just did drugs all day. We dragged it around in an SUV.

Your needs sound easily fulfilled. 

Turncoat said: 

Chapo said: 

I lived in an rv park for like 4 or 5 months, it was actually pretty great. Definitely a fun period of time. There was a separate bathroom area and I remember fucking in it for like 20 minutes and then when we were done we heard someone turn on water and talk out loud about nothing but they definitely heard us. The rv had a tv and a great music system and a microwave and basically we just did drugs all day. We dragged it around in an SUV.

Your needs sound easily fulfilled. 

 Honest assessment? Could be …his parents quite possibly coddle him and cater to his every need and always bail him out and always give him a safe abode such that he can fill his life with “just did drugs all day” so long as he has menial work 

Saintly said: 

I never take your posts seriously Luna. You sound like you are just repeating verbatim what your parents tell you. This one about your neighbor in the RV Park and telling a guy not to text you every day you cribbed from somewhere. Interestingly, I asked if you could do pivot tables and I think you may have missed it

 what does it mean to "crib" something? lol you think im like lieing? why would i make up such weird boring gossip lol

ummm pivot tables... thats an excel thing to connect tables on associated data i think..... id have to google how to do it since i dont use excel enough

the database I am most experienced with is mysql and that does not have pivots. recently though industry seems to be moving toward prisma as database standards which is highly abstracted and im still kinda wrapping my head around it

puppygirl said: 

Saintly said: 

I never take your posts seriously Luna. You sound like you are just repeating verbatim what your parents tell you. This one about your neighbor in the RV Park and telling a guy not to text you every day you cribbed from somewhere. Interestingly, I asked if you could do pivot tables and I think you may have missed it

 what does it mean to "crib" something? lol you think im like lieing? why would i make up such weird boring gossip lol

ummm pivot tables... thats an excel thing to connect tables on associated data i think..... id have to google how to do it since i dont use excel enough

the database I am most experienced with is mysql and that does not have pivots. recently though industry seems to be moving toward prisma as database standards which is highly abstracted and im still kinda wrapping my head around it

 Not specifically lying but that many of your opinions are not your own maybe your parents or your brother?

Also interesting about Prisma I learned something 

puppygirl said: 

ok so.... about a week or 2 ago i was in a bad mood and this guy texted me about some dumb w.e and i told him im not used to talking so much and to please talk to me only once a week instead of every day, and i also told him to not tell me about his adventures with women and dating cuz idc... cuz he tried to tell me he had some viagra or w.e... and was going to find women telling them he had some so that maybe they will wana make love to him? idk its very weird but i told him in text that that is gross and im not like that, and so hes been giving me space which is good... tho honestly i feel like he talks to me every other day

but anyway... we got some new people at the RV park, and my neighbor is so weird and insecure hes blasting his music... as a response to this family nearby playing their music... like hes getting revenge... or showing them hes a cool person who blasts music? either way its kinda cringe lol

also... this guy.. hes 62... he went to some social event and found some like 55 year old woman or something like that... some queen B type with a big social group, and is spending hours on the phone talking to her. he told me today they talked for 2.5 hours on the phone and i was horrified like wow that must have been horrible and he said no it was great

so thats the update on my neighbor lol

 The weird guy next door aside. 

I think in person you have difficulty forming bonds, even if it's with someone you like and they're handing themselves to you on a silver platter. Even someone you like is a threat to your defenses where love is perceived as dangerous or risky. Something ego shattering granted your brain is wired to defend you from hurt, neglect or some form of inconsiderate feedback that forces you away from connections. You probably had a very rough childhood where you had to get hard in the face of neglect or improper attention to your concerns. 

I know you were an orphan at some point in your early stage but I don't know for how long, but it looks like your early caregivers managed to shape you into someone who'll seek nothing more than friendship at arms length, but even that doesn't seem to work for you which is why you'd rather be isolated thousands of miles away from home, living in a recreational vehicle. 

Easily AvPD.  

I don't know if you're fearful or dismissive. 

Being a female ( an actual one, and not someone with a penis and fakeup ) Real guys will always gravitate toward you and want to either hug you, love you or fuck you, which is a bit of pain in your ass, as such things that form attachments is the road to pain based on your wiring. Doesn't really matter if you're cute or not or if you have a flat chest with no curves, people with your condition are able to draw guys in after a few conversations. There is some deep desire to be loved, but you can't really do that, but still you throw in the charm as a way to practice or validate your inner potential to, not be so empty.

The old guy next door is flexing on you at this point. But before that, he was simply the guy next door, and you had something to say. 

There are no coincidences. The old man without a doubt won't be the one. But there is purpose to those interactions, and it will shape you in a way to appreciate someone in your future.

Yes, the love of your life will come, probably in your early 30's.

You'll be afraid to let the new guy see what's on the inside which is something very moody or unfriendly, but you will carry on in some form of friendship. At some point you'll stonewall this individual simply because a closer connection is called for, and you'll scram without a word, even tell him to stay away however you see fit. You're not going to recognize the new guys value at first in the same way your regrets come late, so you'll be prone to putting the new guy so deep into the friendzone, he's not even going to try to form a romantic bond with you. He'll stick around for your shit tests, until he's had his fill and moves on, which you thought he'd never do. He'll never grow on your while in this state of being a doormat. It's when he respects himself enough to ditch, that's when the magic happens. There are ways to prevent this, but at the same time, if you prevent this, you'll never see the final nail in the coffin where he'll earn your full respect and admiration, such is the way of AvPD. It's pretty Satanic in nature. 

At the point where he moves on with dignity, ( which might not ever happen IF he's an ass and unworthy of you considering he'd lack self respect in your eyes for being a tool like the others ) If he moves on, after awhile you'll always compare him to others, and keep failing to replace him until you realize, it simply cannot be done, then you'll realize you're seeking another him, but it won't be him unless it's the real thing.   

You got it good compared to the typical van girl, who can only afford an old van to live in. But the condition is so serious, it's liberating for them ( you too, but the ones living in vans ) to go through the trouble of using public facilities to wash up within business hours in solitude. Maybe they'll have a dog. Those types don't want companionship, and for a guy it's not worth trying.

A lonely woman will be miserable when it's too late for her, and if she settles, it won't be with her true first choice cause that guy you lost will either be in a committed relationship, or thinks it's wiser to remain single, which guys are pretty good at doing. Little bit of porn and Jergens every now and then and he's good to go.  That could be the case between the two of you. High chance. As for now, you don't want it, and it looks as though you never will. You'll change though. 

Now do me lol 

Spatial Mind said: 

puppygirl said: 

ok so.... about a week or 2 ago i was in a bad mood and this guy texted me about some dumb w.e and i told him im not used to talking so much and to please talk to me only once a week instead of every day, and i also told him to not tell me about his adventures with women and dating cuz idc... cuz he tried to tell me he had some viagra or w.e... and was going to find women telling them he had some so that maybe they will wana make love to him? idk its very weird but i told him in text that that is gross and im not like that, and so hes been giving me space which is good... tho honestly i feel like he talks to me every other day

but anyway... we got some new people at the RV park, and my neighbor is so weird and insecure hes blasting his music... as a response to this family nearby playing their music... like hes getting revenge... or showing them hes a cool person who blasts music? either way its kinda cringe lol

also... this guy.. hes 62... he went to some social event and found some like 55 year old woman or something like that... some queen B type with a big social group, and is spending hours on the phone talking to her. he told me today they talked for 2.5 hours on the phone and i was horrified like wow that must have been horrible and he said no it was great

so thats the update on my neighbor lol

 The weird guy next door aside. 

I think in person you have difficulty forming bonds, even if it's with someone you like and they're handing themselves to you on a silver platter. Even someone you like is a threat to your defenses where love is perceived as dangerous or risky. Something ego shattering granted your brain is wired to defend you from hurt, neglect or some form of inconsiderate feedback that forces you away from connections. You probably had a very rough childhood where you had to get hard in the face of neglect or improper attention to your concerns. 

I know you were an orphan at some point in your early stage but I don't know for how long, but it looks like your early caregivers managed to shape you into someone who'll seek nothing more than friendship at arms length, but even that doesn't seem to work for you which is why you'd rather be isolated thousands of miles away from home, living in a recreational vehicle. 

Easily AvPD.  

I don't know if you're fearful or dismissive. 

Being a female ( an actual one, and not someone with a penis and fakeup ) Real guys will always gravitate toward you and want to either hug you, love you or fuck you, which is a bit of pain in your ass, as such things that form attachments is the road to pain based on your wiring. Doesn't really matter if you're cute or not or if you have a flat chest with no curves, people with your condition are able to draw guys in after a few conversations. There is some deep desire to be loved, but you can't really do that, but still you throw in the charm as a way to practice or validate your inner potential to, not be so empty.

The old guy next door is flexing on you at this point. But before that, he was simply the guy next door, and you had something to say. 

There are no coincidences. The old man without a doubt won't be the one. But there is purpose to those interactions, and it will shape you in a way to appreciate someone in your future.

Yes, the love of your life will come, probably in your early 30's.

You'll be afraid to let the new guy see what's on the inside which is something very moody or unfriendly, but you will carry on in some form of friendship. At some point you'll stonewall this individual simply because a closer connection is called for, and you'll scram without a word, even tell him to stay away however you see fit. You're not going to recognize the new guys value at first in the same way your regrets come late, so you'll be prone to putting the new guy so deep into the friendzone, he's not even going to try to form a romantic bond with you. He'll stick around for your shit tests, until he's had his fill and moves on, which you thought he'd never do. He'll never grow on your while in this state of being a doormat. It's when he respects himself enough to ditch, that's when the magic happens. There are ways to prevent this, but at the same time, if you prevent this, you'll never see the final nail in the coffin where he'll earn your full respect and admiration, such is the way of AvPD. It's pretty Satanic in nature. 

At the point where he moves on with dignity, ( which might not ever happen IF he's an ass and unworthy of you considering he'd lack self respect in your eyes for being a tool like the others ) If he moves on, after awhile you'll always compare him to others, and keep failing to replace him until you realize, it simply cannot be done, then you'll realize you're seeking another him, but it won't be him unless it's the real thing.   

You got it good compared to the typical van girl, who can only afford an old van to live in. But the condition is so serious, it's liberating for them ( you too, but the ones living in vans ) to go through the trouble of using public facilities to wash up within business hours in solitude. Maybe they'll have a dog. Those types don't want companionship, and for a guy it's not worth trying.

A lonely woman will be miserable when it's too late for her, and if she settles, it won't be with her true first choice cause that guy you lost will either be in a committed relationship, or thinks it's wiser to remain single, which guys are pretty good at doing. Little bit of porn and Jergens every now and then and he's good to go.  That could be the case between the two of you. High chance. As for now, you don't want it, and it looks as though you never will. You'll change though. 

 you might be 100% right. its flattering how much you know about me lol

Saintly said: 

Now do me lol 

 Luna is easier to figure out cause she spills the beans more about her thoughts and events in her life. Luna needn't even tell the truth, it's more of her outlook that says a lot about her.

For you it's always been about Chapo. Or When you talk about life, it's more guarded. You only share your outlook when responding directly to someone and more often you see people in a different light than what they really are.

What others might find humorous, or if they see what's meant to be funny, you won't see it that way unless you confirm it's a joke. You might then write "lol" but it's impossible to know if you're actually laughing. I can't imagine you fluffing a punchline while we're collectively making fun of someone or something.  

You did change in the past decade. It used to take years for you really talk to anyone. You were more dismissive back then, probably in respects to Chapo which is why you came here in the first place.<<< With this, You are extra protective of what others might think, and that very mechanism is visible every time I crack jokes about being your ex husband with kids, which I'm obviously not. You will 100% shut me down aggressively and insist for the audience of the same people we're not ! Which is your way of assuring others I'm full of shit. They know I'm playing, while you see it as damning to the truth in the matter. But it's not. With that you're fun to pick on once in awhile, people might do it, and it'll never be something you like.  

That thing about you before. About how it took years before you'd open up to anyone here. At the time you'd talk about gloriously shutting down suitors, or some guy that approached you at the gym, like it's a warning to all. That part of you is now dead it seems, but I think it's the same thing about you that rejected Chapo's marriage proposal. I think how he treats you now is revengeful, while at the same time soothes his bruised ego. It's permanent. 

You're very serious most of the time.  That quote of yours I'm responding to right now, is considerably rare coming from you. It's nice, like something is right in the universe when the serious ones is smiling.

You seem pretty crazy in a functional way if that makes sense. You're pretty smart despite lacking some senses, like what someone might mean, I don't know how to diagnose you. Just know how to press your buttons or avoid your wrath. Basically I know how you should be treated. Whatever condition you have, and I mean the thing that makes your personality constantly literal and serious, it allows obsession to be love, and love to be obsession. No difference. You'd have given Chapo a family and stability, and some drugs. You would've been submissive to him until you are dead. ( Trust me, when a woman is submissive, she's happy, and you know it ) While others would argue you're obsessed, they'd say otherwise if Chapo never treated you like shit, then all of a sudden the same force they call obsession would be seen as love, because people think love must be returned for love to exist, which isn't true. It's like this for your case, no one else. Personally I don't think Chapo deserves it. He probably even knows that deep down inside, it just doesn't phase him it seems. 

In general I'm fond of you in a platonic way, we're not really friends. Its comradeship. I'd recognize you in person, probably not the other way around but still, if I say it's me, you have ways of knowing for sure. At times you're the life of the party as it's amazing how much abuse you've taken and loved under such stress with persistence. Kinda like Christ does. You're no saint, but you don't seem bad either. As long as we don't bring you foolery you're easy going, with the exception you rarely ever talk about anything else, though that seems to have changed these days.  

The best part of your story will be your evolution, and I'm not just saying that. People like seeing others escape hell even if it's self inflicted, and there you are, you seem happier today, more communicative than before. If he comes chasing, don't fall for it, he's an unfriendly force and NOT even a good ho. A half decent ho will do a good job for way less, but not that guy. It's Broken promises and breadcrumbs. Forgive him for your sake, understand him and move on. 

Do your studies, and carry on. You got it much better than everyone here. (Except me, I'd really dope) but that's beside the point. 

puppygirl said: 

Spatial Mind said: 

puppygirl said: 

ok so.... about a week or 2 ago i was in a bad mood and this guy texted me about some dumb w.e and i told him im not used to talking so much and to please talk to me only once a week instead of every day, and i also told him to not tell me about his adventures with women and dating cuz idc... cuz he tried to tell me he had some viagra or w.e... and was going to find women telling them he had some so that maybe they will wana make love to him? idk its very weird but i told him in text that that is gross and im not like that, and so hes been giving me space which is good... tho honestly i feel like he talks to me every other day

but anyway... we got some new people at the RV park, and my neighbor is so weird and insecure hes blasting his music... as a response to this family nearby playing their music... like hes getting revenge... or showing them hes a cool person who blasts music? either way its kinda cringe lol

also... this guy.. hes 62... he went to some social event and found some like 55 year old woman or something like that... some queen B type with a big social group, and is spending hours on the phone talking to her. he told me today they talked for 2.5 hours on the phone and i was horrified like wow that must have been horrible and he said no it was great

so thats the update on my neighbor lol

 The weird guy next door aside. 

I think in person you have difficulty forming bonds, even if it's with someone you like and they're handing themselves to you on a silver platter. Even someone you like is a threat to your defenses where love is perceived as dangerous or risky. Something ego shattering granted your brain is wired to defend you from hurt, neglect or some form of inconsiderate feedback that forces you away from connections. You probably had a very rough childhood where you had to get hard in the face of neglect or improper attention to your concerns. 

I know you were an orphan at some point in your early stage but I don't know for how long, but it looks like your early caregivers managed to shape you into someone who'll seek nothing more than friendship at arms length, but even that doesn't seem to work for you which is why you'd rather be isolated thousands of miles away from home, living in a recreational vehicle. 

Easily AvPD.  

I don't know if you're fearful or dismissive. 

Being a female ( an actual one, and not someone with a penis and fakeup ) Real guys will always gravitate toward you and want to either hug you, love you or fuck you, which is a bit of pain in your ass, as such things that form attachments is the road to pain based on your wiring. Doesn't really matter if you're cute or not or if you have a flat chest with no curves, people with your condition are able to draw guys in after a few conversations. There is some deep desire to be loved, but you can't really do that, but still you throw in the charm as a way to practice or validate your inner potential to, not be so empty.

The old guy next door is flexing on you at this point. But before that, he was simply the guy next door, and you had something to say. 

There are no coincidences. The old man without a doubt won't be the one. But there is purpose to those interactions, and it will shape you in a way to appreciate someone in your future.

Yes, the love of your life will come, probably in your early 30's.

You'll be afraid to let the new guy see what's on the inside which is something very moody or unfriendly, but you will carry on in some form of friendship. At some point you'll stonewall this individual simply because a closer connection is called for, and you'll scram without a word, even tell him to stay away however you see fit. You're not going to recognize the new guys value at first in the same way your regrets come late, so you'll be prone to putting the new guy so deep into the friendzone, he's not even going to try to form a romantic bond with you. He'll stick around for your shit tests, until he's had his fill and moves on, which you thought he'd never do. He'll never grow on your while in this state of being a doormat. It's when he respects himself enough to ditch, that's when the magic happens. There are ways to prevent this, but at the same time, if you prevent this, you'll never see the final nail in the coffin where he'll earn your full respect and admiration, such is the way of AvPD. It's pretty Satanic in nature. 

At the point where he moves on with dignity, ( which might not ever happen IF he's an ass and unworthy of you considering he'd lack self respect in your eyes for being a tool like the others ) If he moves on, after awhile you'll always compare him to others, and keep failing to replace him until you realize, it simply cannot be done, then you'll realize you're seeking another him, but it won't be him unless it's the real thing.   

You got it good compared to the typical van girl, who can only afford an old van to live in. But the condition is so serious, it's liberating for them ( you too, but the ones living in vans ) to go through the trouble of using public facilities to wash up within business hours in solitude. Maybe they'll have a dog. Those types don't want companionship, and for a guy it's not worth trying.

A lonely woman will be miserable when it's too late for her, and if she settles, it won't be with her true first choice cause that guy you lost will either be in a committed relationship, or thinks it's wiser to remain single, which guys are pretty good at doing. Little bit of porn and Jergens every now and then and he's good to go.  That could be the case between the two of you. High chance. As for now, you don't want it, and it looks as though you never will. You'll change though. 

 you might be 100% right. its flattering how much you know about me lol

You'd seldom say that to someone face to face. On the phone you'd express that toward someone you find safe. Probably Michael. 

This is just a guess. 

Say you and a friend ( you don't mix people together btw. Only 1 on 1. Less messy. Easier clean ups. ) but you and your friend person you choose to hang out with for a bit, walk into a convenience store and they say, "You want anything ?"

You're not going to say anything. You'll expect them to know what you'd what. At best you'll want them to notice what you're looking at. Might be sour keys, or gummy bears.

What is that ? It's that thing again isn't it ? For you to tell him what you want, it'll generate a bonding moment of some sort. No wait. It's him seeking approval again ! Disgusting creature ! It's gross to you. Still he should get the damn sour keys and you can both just forget about it ! 

Spatial is good at reading people, I give him that.