Right now.
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Today I’m feeling like or my perspective on myself is wow you must be totally mad
And that’s scary, but is a common revelation amongst people who have trauma so,
there’s this part of me that’s always waiting for the other shoe to drop,
I’m trying to figure out the right medications but the only thing that makes me feel more ‘inside’ myself and normal again is a benzo.
I know people in recovery who have trauma and take it daily. I just wish there was another way, and my doctors are trying to find it. I just don’t have the best responses to medications, adjusting to them is, hard, and… i want to feel more like ‘myself’ not further from it.
I feel like if i keep talking bout it enough with a pro, I’ll… be able to resch healing break throughs that allow me to shed the hypervigilence
Go get a job Mary, you dont have real trauma. Shut up so actual victims get taken seriously.
Good job for the first time in a while i did a lil self care moment. I need lots of that. Cant pour from an empty cup
Good job me. Ur doing great sweetie.
No you dont you spoiled brat. You need to actually feel pain instead of being a whiny pampered bitch.
You need to actually feel pain instead of being a whiny pampered bitch.
But the lifestyle she's living that you'd call being a 'whiny pampered bitch' is a life that she already finds painful.
How is more pain supposed to help her?
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Eww what why? The legs are soooo bad looking with the flattening idea: 
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I found the string to my beautiful pink vintage robe
Anyways this is my warning, about
HomeGoods bargain hunting gone wrong (sometimes it goes right but you need to be careful)
in other news the sheets from Ugg are not good. Go with Kate spade. I made a mistake.
Learn, learn from my mistake. Read, research, before you buy things.
Get the receipt so you can return it. Then check it just to make sure. In the store and at home.
I did not do this. I did get the receipt but. I don’t care, to return it. I’ll just buy different ones later and never make this mistake again
It is hard to find quality things, just, keep that in mind when you are shopping??? I don’t know.
But hey, my bed looks pretty sweet now. Right now i have the white waffle knit bedding and just white sheets/shams, like I’m talking hotel white. I wanted it to match the trim on the walls and base boards or whatever.
Oh yeah. That’s what i should have done though is uh, well, check the manufacture (oko Tex stuff sucks sometimes). Read the shit like whats the material, dumb dumb, and the thread count and
do your research first. What i forgot to do was think about, oh hey, i really liked *these* sheets i tried from this hotel i stayed in once- i should research what sheets they use and, how they are maintained professionally so i can achieve similar results. I regret, not doing that because i know better I KNOW.
but at least they’re the right color.
Anyways, i think i want to try Belgian linen next possibly or something like that but for fall winter I’ll tolerate the Ugg sheets and the waffle knit puffy thing.
Not the worst thing in the world but i just, hey. We gotta look out for each other as consumers about stuff. It seems obvious too but like, i really just forgot to do all that stuff.
This is your daily reminder to seek quality control in your home goods purchases good night
Oh i also realized during my fall refreshing cleaning that i have two extra palettes so I’m gonna sell those.
And… what else. Oh yeah while we’re talking about products.
The too faced coa coa collection of lipsticks is pretty colors but it’s not perfect, and i hate the formula.
Mac is the OG. Anything else that competes with that, I’m really interested.
But yeah i regret buying those coa coa things. Hard pass