Right now.
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Today I’m feeling like or my perspective on myself is wow you must be totally mad
And that’s scary, but is a common revelation amongst people who have trauma so,
there’s this part of me that’s always waiting for the other shoe to drop,
I’m trying to figure out the right medications but the only thing that makes me feel more ‘inside’ myself and normal again is a benzo.
I know people in recovery who have trauma and take it daily. I just wish there was another way, and my doctors are trying to find it. I just don’t have the best responses to medications, adjusting to them is, hard, and… i want to feel more like ‘myself’ not further from it.
I feel like if i keep talking bout it enough with a pro, I’ll… be able to resch healing break throughs that allow me to shed the hypervigilence
Go get a job Mary, you dont have real trauma. Shut up so actual victims get taken seriously.
Good job for the first time in a while i did a lil self care moment. I need lots of that. Cant pour from an empty cup
Good job me. Ur doing great sweetie.
No you dont you spoiled brat. You need to actually feel pain instead of being a whiny pampered bitch.
You need to actually feel pain instead of being a whiny pampered bitch.
But the lifestyle she's living that you'd call being a 'whiny pampered bitch' is a life that she already finds painful.
How is more pain supposed to help her?
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Eww what why? The legs are soooo bad looking with the flattening idea: 
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