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Spatial Mind said: 

CryBlackbird said: 

Spatial Mind said: 

He called himself Lycan back then. 

That is the first SC marriage. 

I lost someone close to me last February, I unexpectedly mourned several times a day for 2 weeks. Now it's not bad at all.

You'll go through something similar when he's gone, probably much worse cause you were a bit, short fused if I recall correctly. 

Whatever the case, I hope his death is painless. Pain is the only scary thing about dying. Some says it's painless. 

Turncoat came out as a Transexual and insists he's a woman. 

 God has transformed my mind. I really didn’t think I could change.  It wasn’t instantaneous of course. It was a gradual process of refinement through fire. I’ve been humbled these last four years especially, as we navigated through his cancer journey. We’ve both been humbled. 

Amazing.

Transformation is good as long as it's for the better. 

I'm thinking, since you and him achieved such a bond, it's as though your tribulations kinda forced you closer to God, as though God wants your connection to carry on. 

 

Anticipatory grief is real. The last few weeks have been like a hellish emotional awakening. I’ve always had problems with dissociation and attachment. Even past the changes in me. I was beginning to fear I wouldn’t be able to connect to the depth of my pain. It’s strange to say how relieved I am that it’s there. I feel it more deeply than I’ve ever felt anything in my whole life. It’s agonizing but at least it’s real and I can process it sober and with my eyes wide open. 

When distressed I'd rather avoid any form of pain or mourning, but as I mentioned earlier, I unexpectedly broke. 

You will for sure connect to the depth of your pain, because of what it actually is, which is basically an ego death, or to be more descriptive a forced transformation of the ego. You'll have no choice but to change and you've become accustomed to him being in your life.

It's interesting how you've found some type of relief in your suffering. That's a high degree of knowledge/wisdom right there. 

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As for Turncoat—- what can I say? The spirit of confusion devours many these days.

 I added the Turncoat gossip to probably amuse you, but you got me nodding along. 

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I grew up Roman Catholic but I don't follow the religion. I see there's a lot wrong with it. 

There's this one song we used to sing in Church though, sounds like crossing over, or how we'll be after life on Earth. 

( Excuse the imagery in this video since I don't believe Jesus was white )

 My son yahshua “jesus” is brown

CryBlackbird said: 

Have you ever had to sit beside someone as they died? All the way to the death rattle? 

Who did you lose, btw?

 A very good friend of the family. She was like my Yoda when it comes to finance. I had a room in a nice condo I paid around 80k to rent over the past 10 years. 

She was prideful and dismissive of the situation when she wasn't feeling well. I took her to the hospital and waited 17 hours for her to get a bed in the hall. 

She never wanted to notify her family, as she was downplaying whatever was happening to her. She vomited this green liquid, I handled the bag, and it felt like warm water, but green. 

I brought her mail and sat there all day until i was kicked out. I was using Ai to help figure out what's wrong, I took screenshots of the iv bags and one of the drugs they gave her was called Zofran. Zofran prevents vomiting. I said, but wait, isn't it better to let the body eject substances instead of preventing the vomiting ? The Ai said yes, but it can also prevent dehydration. They were also giving her electrolytes, which is funny cause I offered her some electromag and she turned it down. 

She was feeling bloated and in a lot of pain. The Ai suggested too much iv can be fatal. And I'll confirm....

Gemini States: "Yes, excessive intravenous (IV) fluids can potentially harm the kidneys. While IV fluids are crucial for maintaining hydration and blood volume, particularly in critically ill patients, they can also lead to fluid overload (hypervolemia) if administered in excessive amounts. This can result in kidney problems such as acute kidney injury (AKI)." 

Watch this now.

One day she told me not to come because there was a COVID 19 outbreak in the hospital. 

Next day I answer her call and it's her Son on the line. First asking me if I've been visiting and how she had a heart attack. 

I go the the hospital and her family is there, and they're all treating me like a villain, while she's out cold on life support. 

Now they say when a heart attack happens, if the person is gone for too long it can damage the kidneys, and the kidneys produce urine, and her body wasn't producing any, and she was STILL on the iv. 

I'm thinking to myself how they are basically killing her. but I'm not a doctor, which the Ai has been pretty damn informative. 

The toxins in her body 2 days later, damaged kidneys, we expected if we woke her up we'd see the brain damage, so without much say, they pulled the plug. I'm guessing the machines were able to killer her or something cause when she passed, the machine was still pumping air into her lungs and the body was breathing.

I regret not going in when she said there was a COVID outbreak in the hospital, she was probably downplaying the situation when she knew she was about to die. One of her sisters told me she was notified and told not to go either. From what I gather they found her dead and were able to bring her back in an induced coma. 

The doctor was some busy lady, talked for 2 minutes then she dealt some drugs and fucked off. And I think they fucked up her care and she got hypervolemia which triggers heart attacks.

I was there the most, did the work, feared she might get hypervolemia, and she got it. I bring this up, but everyone is dismissive about it cause, I don't have a degree. I think the only way they'd take me seriously is if I go on a rampage and beat everyone for being ignorant, get arrested, then I'll have a serious case. 

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I wept randomly everyday for 2 weeks. It's not like you and Lycan where you have that close partnership but you will recover sooner than later.

AI powered Spatial is a crazy thing to witness. 

Leave me alone, perv. 

firstthingisee said: 

AI powered Spatial is a crazy thing to witness. 

 :D

Spatial Mind said: 

CryBlackbird said: 

Have you ever had to sit beside someone as they died? All the way to the death rattle? 

Who did you lose, btw?

 A very good friend of the family. She was like my Yoda when it comes to finance. I had a room in a nice condo I paid around 80k to rent over the past 10 years. 

She was prideful and dismissive of the situation when she wasn't feeling well. I took her to the hospital and waited 17 hours for her to get a bed in the hall. 

She never wanted to notify her family, as she was downplaying whatever was happening to her. She vomited this green liquid, I handled the bag, and it felt like warm water, but green. 

I brought her mail and sat there all day until i was kicked out. I was using Ai to help figure out what's wrong, I took screenshots of the iv bags and one of the drugs they gave her was called Zofran. Zofran prevents vomiting. I said, but wait, isn't it better to let the body eject substances instead of preventing the vomiting ? The Ai said yes, but it can also prevent dehydration. They were also giving her electrolytes, which is funny cause I offered her some electromag and she turned it down. 

She was feeling bloated and in a lot of pain. The Ai suggested too much iv can be fatal. And I'll confirm....

Gemini States: "Yes, excessive intravenous (IV) fluids can potentially harm the kidneys. While IV fluids are crucial for maintaining hydration and blood volume, particularly in critically ill patients, they can also lead to fluid overload (hypervolemia) if administered in excessive amounts. This can result in kidney problems such as acute kidney injury (AKI)." 

Watch this now.

One day she told me not to come because there was a COVID 19 outbreak in the hospital. 

Next day I answer her call and it's her Son on the line. First asking me if I've been visiting and how she had a heart attack. 

I go the the hospital and her family is there, and they're all treating me like a villain, while she's out cold on life support. 

Now they say when a heart attack happens, if the person is gone for too long it can damage the kidneys, and the kidneys produce urine, and her body wasn't producing any, and she was STILL on the iv. 

I'm thinking to myself how they are basically killing her. but I'm not a doctor, which the Ai has been pretty damn informative. 

The toxins in her body 2 days later, damaged kidneys, we expected if we woke her up we'd see the brain damage, so without much say, they pulled the plug. I'm guessing the machines were able to killer her or something cause when she passed, the machine was still pumping air into her lungs and the body was breathing.

I regret not going in when she said there was a COVID outbreak in the hospital, she was probably downplaying the situation when she knew she was about to die. One of her sisters told me she was notified and told not to go either. From what I gather they found her dead and were able to bring her back in an induced coma. 

The doctor was some busy lady, talked for 2 minutes then she dealt some drugs and fucked off. And I think they fucked up her care and she got hypervolemia which triggers heart attacks.

I was there the most, did the work, feared she might get hypervolemia, and she got it. I bring this up, but everyone is dismissive about it cause, I don't have a degree. I think the only way they'd take me seriously is if I go on a rampage and beat everyone for being ignorant, get arrested, then I'll have a serious case. 

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I wept randomly everyday for 2 weeks. It's not like you and Lycan where you have that close partnership but you will recover sooner than later.

 

 Sounds like she died a violent death. She didn’t want you to have the burden of those last moments in your memory. I don’t think Lycan will die in that way. He’s on hospice now, and they work round the clock to ensure he’s as comfortable as possible. 

Now we sit and wait. I’ve told him I’m going to be fine but I haven’t told him it’s ok for him to go yet. I probably should do that next.

CryBlackbird said: 

 Sounds like she died a violent death. She didn’t want you to have the burden of those last moments in your memory. I don’t think Lycan will die in that way. He’s on hospice now, and they work round the clock to ensure he’s as comfortable as possible. 

I think she never wanted to be surrounded by her family cause they would've been dramatic and that would've annoyed her, so she kept downplaying the situation.

I did notice she had this pissed off expression on her face. 

Now we sit and wait. I’ve told him I’m going to be fine but I haven’t told him it’s ok for him to go yet. I probably should do that next.

Acceptance is good. 

I tried replying to that 5 times and can't seem to come up with a good enough response. The bond is for sure genuine since you've moved to be with the guy, stayed with him and now you're seeing him off.    

Ai take over is crazy see my new post

Spatial Mind said: 

CryBlackbird said: 

 Sounds like she died a violent death. She didn’t want you to have the burden of those last moments in your memory. I don’t think Lycan will die in that way. He’s on hospice now, and they work round the clock to ensure he’s as comfortable as possible. 

I think she never wanted to be surrounded by her family cause they would've been dramatic and that would've annoyed her, so she kept downplaying the situation.

I did notice she had this pissed off expression on her face. 

 

Now we sit and wait. I’ve told him I’m going to be fine but I haven’t told him it’s ok for him to go yet. I probably should do that next.

 

Acceptance is good. 

I tried replying to that 5 times and can't seem to come up with a good enough response. The bond is for sure genuine since you've moved to be with the guy, stayed with him and now you're seeing him off.    

 It’s been a wild ride