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Congratulations Delora! 

It's nice to know how you're moving on in the world. I hope you continue your path, it's exciting to see you excel and continue to grow into such an accomplished and bright person. 

You were friends with fucking Chris Chan? Dude please elaborate

I had drama that shaped me

This.

It was fun to watch people not only go through their lives, but see how those around them pushed them in new directions if not unearthed more details and story context. I also had my life shaped by the place pretty massively. 

How different do you think things would have been if you'd not come here? 

Lena said: 

Congratulations Delora! 

It's nice to know how you're moving on in the world. I hope you continue your path, it's exciting to see you excel and continue to grow into such an accomplished and bright person. 

 Thank you Luna! I have watched you grow as well. We all have. 

Turncoat said: 

I had drama that shaped me

This.

It was fun to watch people not only go through their lives, but see how those around them pushed them in new directions if not unearthed more details and story context. I also had my life shaped by the place pretty massively. 

How different do you think things would have been if you'd not come here? 

 Well job corps wasn't what it is today when I joined. Had I not waited this long the forestry technician program wouldn't exist yet, and the amazing teacher I have and care about wouldn't either here at this place. I would have never been in the class. I would have never met my husband either, gotten pregnant, or gotten land on the big island. My home, career, husband, and family tree would have been different. I would have never met my best friend Johanna. I would have never felt so disgusted by people here who don't try to excel in life and make something of themselves that I pushed myself out of living at my aunt's for free as a disabled charity case out of fear of becoming like those people. I would have never made long term friendships like I did which shaped me as a person. My personality and philosophy would be different. I would have never been introduced to the iowaska by my husband and met the tree angels, so my religious beliefs would be completely different. I would still be an attention seeking traumatized woman child with no friends, no education, no job, no real spirituality and no relationship. That is why I will never stop coming here. I must keep the place that saved me alive. No matter what. I would have never been on CX! 

cx3 said: 

You were friends with fucking Chris Chan? Dude please elaborate

 Ah, haha right. I met him through a friend of a friend on a game called "pony town". I started connecting with him on Facebook and discord, and a handful of times over the phone. After he started to spiral out of control and lose himself more and more, we lost touch. 

Congrats.

Honestly I am really jealous that you can feel such gratitude towards this community. Despite my being here much longer than you, I never made any close friends, didn't connect with anyone IRL, didn't even VC, and mostly I felt like an outsider. This forum has had minimal impact in my life, and my life would've likely been even better without it, had it not impacted it so little. Perhaps it's because I already had a network outside of the forum, so I didn't need to rely on anyone.

So in the theme of the forum, may I ask, do you have a feeling of accomplishment, now that you're headed to get to college? Forestry technician sounds pretty badass.

Jada said: 

Despite my being here much longer than you, I never made any close friends, didn't connect with anyone IRL, didn't even VC, and mostly I felt like an outsider.

You'd have to trust people and be honest to accomplish that one in a way that has any longevity. 

I get the feeling you don't see people as people. 

This forum has had minimal impact in my life, and my life would've likely been even better without it, had it not impacted it so little.

You get out of it what you put into it. I have friends from here I talk to pretty much every day and play games with, even with the state the forum has become. 

Perhaps it's because I already had a network outside of the forum, so I didn't need to rely on anyone.

I dunno man, you seem kinda lonely to me. 

I'd be happy to hear why you think I might not see people as people and what you mean by that.

I'd be lying if I said I didn't feel lonely at times. However, a lot of this was me misdiagnosing stress and lack of sleep for loneliness. I've since fixed my diet, sleep, and general health, and I feel substantially better.

Now I've mostly realized that I'm simply stronger and smarter than those around me, which is why I'm different. Rather than perceiving it as a weakness, I see it as a strength now. I still enjoy social interactions, but in a way that I don't particularly care what I get out of it, because I see myself as the main contributor in all conversations.