I had another miscarriage recently last year a couple months ago. There was a lot of blood. My husband rushed us to the ER to save our second child but it was to late and I just got sent home with some stupid papers about dealing with miscarriage or whatever. My husband and I had a follow up appointment after and one of my ovaries is smaller than the other. Turns out not only is that ovary an undescended testicle, but that my parents knew I was intersex and never told me (it's a long story)
I remember you mentioning the body bits, but not the second miscarriage.
Sorry to read that.(It's okay. you don't remember because I was still grieving and wasn't ready to address it yet. It's also why I haven't been on sc much. I went into my own shell for a while.)
I mean I'm pretty nice to other people I've changed lot.
Any sadism I have is typically in response to someone treating me like shit, I don't normally get sadistic unprovoked. I am usually the perpetrator towards perpetrators.Do you figure your mother thinks this about herself?
(No, that would be to normal and make to much sense. You would think, but actually she's proud to be a bitch and brags about it.)
However I do tend to have PTSD episodes sometimes and that can stress out the people around me and I'm working on that, but that isn't sadism persey. It isn't right, but it's not sadism. If anything I tend to be more masochistic.
It's definitely been sadistic in nature when you've tried to drag others into ruining other people.
Such as trying to get legal justice for Emily sexually blackmailing me as a minor? Yeah that isn't exactly targeting innocent bystanders there.
Yes, pigeon-hole it into just one situation.
If you're not ready to look in the mirror, it shows how those of your family line may not have been ready to either. I bet she uses all sorts of distancing mental gymnastics of the same line.
