The rest:
1. Me discussing talking to YHWH and how that makes it hard for me to explain from my old perspective, prior to hearing Him and how I know it’s Him and not the devil.
It’s hard for me because I already know it’s true because I have seen how He works and actually hear His voice and know His real name and He told me His real name Himself, so I know for a fact, mainly because He responds to or says not to say what I am going to think, before I actively think it, like I start a sentence and I don’t finish it, but I feel the words I want to say and he says not to “say” them or responds to them and the devil, whom I also hear, can’t do that. All he can hear is what I actually actively think. That’s how I can tell the difference, but also the devil accuses me of things that aren’t true, like He says you don’t love God and stuff like that or says like no you don’t or whatever he wants, really.
I only know I’m not crazy because they have only ever addressed each other a few times, like one time God told the devil not to tell me something and also He got mad at him because he lied about what happened when God let him pretend to be Him and talk to me and also, He tells me things that I don’t and can’t know and He doesn’t tell me what to do because of free will, even when I ask Him to and the devil lies and also tells me to do stuff, but they turn out to be only good on the surface and not good for everyone, which is how I know that God is purely good and the devil is a liar, which is evil. Aside from the Bible. It’s hard to go backwards to when I didn’t hear Him and explain things from that perspective, but…
- Note I used evidence from what I know from the Bible to understand what I was hearing and tested it with knowledge that I could not have obtained myself and didn’t have.
2. This was my attempt to explain why I believed before I heard Him.
I knew God was real because He sacrificed himself for us, while we were at our worst. We were sinners and He gave His perfect life for us and that’s an unparalleled action. No other religion says that someone died and took away the sins of the world, who was perfect. No other religion even claims that there was a perfect person.
No other theory even explains what perfection is or what the source of good and evil are and if I have no source to point to, I’ll point to the only source available on the subject because what else do I point to? Should I just pretend there is no source of good and there is no such thing as perfect? What do I strive for, if not perfection? I’m not perfect, so who is?
These questions are what fuel my curiosity and lead me to the Bible. The Christian Bible. Other religions have God in them too, as a human, but they say He was a profit, but only perfection allows for a perfect sacrifice and everything needs balance, so if there’s good, there’s evil, perfect requires imperfect and questions require answers.
If there are no answers, we are lost, but we have a single source of answers, which is the Christian Bible and only because I see His sacrifice as something way too loving to make up. Way too perfect to come from our lustful and selfish hearts. It just doesn’t add up, unless it’s true. Deductive reasoning and then I had faith, then belief, then He gave me knowledge. How else do you think I turned from the most evil person ever, to how I am now?
-Note how I explained that the idea of his sacrifice was so loving that it must be true, which negates other religions because they don’t have such a perfect sacrifice and the idea of perfection which leads me to wonder things that I informed you of and literally walked through my train of thought on the matter. It says nothing about knowing because I know. It’s deductive reasoning and I even said that in there somewhere.
3. Me explaining how God didn’t lie when He told the dude to kill his son:
No, He said in order to do this, you have to do that. It was true, but He is merciful and knew that He was going to give Himself for our sins instead of us having to die. He literally just repeated, “the wages of sin is death.” You sinned and someone needs to die, then He said take your son up the mountain and kill Him. No lying at all because the underlying truth makes all references to it, no matter in what form it is, true. That’s how I write and think and talk as well. That’s why I can say I love someone and then say I don’t love them romantically. I love them as a person, as I love everyone because I love God and I love His creation, including people who are my neighbor, but I don’t love them all romantically. It’s the same thing there. The underlying truth needs to be known or it looks like it’s a lie. That’s why people think I lie, when I don’t. Hopefully you get that.
- Note that I explained how I write and speak in relation to how it wasn’t a lie, just like I don’t lie, but just have information that doesn’t come to mind right away for others, as a backdrop for all future actions.
4. Finally, this is me explaining how I talk and how the Bible is written, versus how people understand what it said:
We were made inside of God, which is why we are a part of God, when we get baptized. We are literally the body of “Christ,” as the Bible says. That’s an example of how I write things. People think we were made to look like God because it says we were made in his image, but it actually means we were made out of Him, like we were literally made inside of the image of God and His image is His body, so we are the body of Christ because we were made IN his image, like out of His organs, type of thing. “In” means more than one thing in this context and people read it as look like him, but it’s really, made out of him. That’s how I write and it’s the same mistake people make when they read the Bible. They read from their own head and experience and ways of speaking instead of reading as it is written. That’s why they think the Bible contradicts itself and I do too, but I don’t. I’m just literal and it doesn’t make sense to people because they don’t think that way, so they can’t even see the truth in my explanations because I put them back into the terms they use so they can understand it and it sounds different to them, even though it’s the same. See: “make man in our image,” versus, “make man out of the material that makes up our image.” They mean the same thing, but one is an explanation of the meaning of the first one, but in terms we understand better. Hopefully, you understand me better now, with this example.
-Note the hope I placed at the end.
