Let me put this into perspective. I subscribe to the theory of multiple intelligencies. You may be a physicist but you are rather a Cookbook physicist and not a theoretician. (You keep posting the same statistics forumlae to analyze your posts just with new application). And I mean that with such kindess.
I think you've seen one part of me and mistake it for the whole. Turncoat can verify.
I think your answer is that you want to find community. Do you have other gifts, in art or music, or something I have not mentioned? I myself am trying to execute upon a plan to do find community. In the meantime, read Feynman if you would like to model yourself after a noted theoretician.
I've tried to model myself after Albert Einstein and less so Indiana Jones and Jesus.
I've an interest in building my own philosophy after abandoning buddhism, socratic thinking, stoicism, intuitism, empiricism, and idealism. I guess something like a mix of intuitism and faith, but I find all philosophies lacking.
I also have an interest in neuroscience and heuristic biases, and I've tried to make a spin off psychology from some of the basic principles of Daniel Kahneman, down to.mathematical lemmas.
I also enjoy stock analyses and religion, particularly in applying reductivism to stochastic processes and religious principles. I also enjoy thinking about consciousness and exploring how I myself think and respond to ques, and I frequently act contradictory to how I feel like I should act as a matter of experimentation. I think I'm good at introspection. I also like to see how others behave and if I can emulate their behavior to better understand what they might be feeling and thinking, and to grow as a person. A part of this is traveling and getting to know different cultures.
Beyond that, I enjoy cooking and law. If you ask my wife, cooking is not my gift, but I work hard at it. In terms of sports, I don't do much these days but I've been good enough to participate in a world cup in one knock down martial art, and I was the best at that on a national level in my weight class and 1 weight class above my natural weight, when I was active.
Post some of your music pls.
My dad incidentally was a physicist who became an intellectual property lawyer, but he was a renaissance man to me, who enjoyed history, art history, current events, (incidentally his English was as good as his mathematics), travel, music (I have the entirety of his LP record collection). Moreover, my dad had to show proficiency in two languages in addition to English for his PhD. (Do they still do that?) He originally wanted to be an architect (which requires art and math) and he headed off the commercial art editorials of his university magazine.
I dont have a community either. I know only 3 languages, never been very talented with them. I guess I'm like your dad then.