You have been talking about microdosing on shrooms and psychedelics ect. And for many people, this can be a good thing.
However, it is only good for those for whom is it suitable.
Anyone who struggles with delusions, schizophrenia or schizophrenic like symptoms, fits of hysteria ect, are not fit for these things because it can make the person worse and develop schizophrenia or worse schizophrenia.
But I am not here to shut you down, but guide you in a better direction.
I think that something to get high off of for you that wouldn't worsen your symptoms and struggles would be the occasional kava root tea, of maybe before bed an occasional tea of passion flower, lavender, ginger, tumeric, and mugwort. This will give you fun and exciting dreams but not be as much of a risk to your health and your well being.
You have been doing well by communicating with your doctor and exploring medication as an option with them.
Make sure that whatever herbs you try herbs are medicine to and might not be compatible with your medication, and do your research.
I can help you do that research if you are open to sharing what medication you take, how much of it, and how frequently.
You can also learn to practice deep meditation, as that can have a lot of the same effects of these substances you have been talking about but more in the long term, although it does require a lot of discipline anything worth it typically does.
This way, you can find assistance in self improvement and enlightenment that you are looking for, instead of sacrificing your mental health.
What works for me are the occasional thought exercises especially when I fin myself in states of high emotion.
Take a deep breath and pause as you exercise deep breathing and ask yourself
Is this rational? Is this helpful? And does this actually make sense? Does it align with reality? Because the best way to improve your reality is to try to understand what your reality is.
On a side note do not forget to let thy food be thy medicine and eat a healthy diet with appropriate fat and calories discussed with your doctor, as it is extremely important to all of these things and none of my advice works nearly as well if at all if you do not have proper eating and exercise.
Thank you for reading 😊
