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I hear that. My family is extremely religious and growing up......ugh WOW. I was bullied in school even back then and that wasn't nearly as bad as the nineties as I am younger than you.

Knowing martial arts worked as a shield, I only ever got in fights with people who didn't get what that meant and the fights always ended in one swift kick. 

But even back then it was odd or unheard of. One difference was I was obsessed with so many boy things I had to hide it to fit in with the girls and I still didn't. In fact oftentimes I found myself sexually attracted to the other girls and had thoughta and feelings no one taught me about and I didn't understand. I felt like a freak. I hated myself. I kissed a girl. People around me hated me. 

The whole idea of 'boy things' and 'girl things' is silly anyway, and girls do that shit all the time. 

Also yeah it's pretty clear that you've liked girls based plainly on how you've acted on this forum. You have both a sense of women being as if 'The Other' while relating more to men, and that other-ing is how attraction and animosity can form. 

It can destroy your life. I had hormone therapy without consent and it was inconsistent and random in waves of getting none for two weeks and then suddenly getting a shit ton like two weeks worth all at once. The adults around me gave NO shits.

So the real problem is moreso how they did it. 

Oh I know exactly what you mean. Before knowing I am just intersex I thought I was trans, and suddenly I went from feeling alone like the only one with seeing hundreds of people around me online being seen in the exact same way and expressing the same thoughts I was having. The only thing is I think it's gone to far now, but It was great at first.

You were pretty aggressive about gender roles before this intersex thing, even trying to tell me motherhood would reprogram you into a proper mother.

You also tried to be 'one of the guys' on another website didn't you? You seemed to enjoy that more than playing the part of a woman, a part you seem notably stressed over. 

Doesn't it make you uncomfortable at all being called he even a little bit or no? So basically you don't want to deal with people being inconsiderate. I always thought you didn't care either way. I only started calling you she becomes you seem so feminine to me and i don't really think about it.

I'd rather not be interrupting their train of thought, and taking the time to correct every person who does so is exhausting. 

It's one thing to have someone in your face about it, it's another to have them misgender by dropping the wrong title. The latter isn't really that bad if their intent doesn't appear otherwise malicious, like ffs it's one letter off. I mostly listen for the -e of he and she. 

Yeah I understand what you are saying. Have you ever wondered if you are intersex maybe, like me? There are apparently people who go being like me their entire lives without ever knowing it.

My parts seem to work traditionally in a single direction in spite of my hormonal imbalance. The symptoms are subtler and I've gotten people pregnant before, so by physical or Darwinian standards it is not the case. 

People afraid of women who are comfortable with men have tended to see me sort of like a bridge, as it's not 'that gender' while still offering the expectations in social situations you'd expect out of estrogen. 

For people afraid of women who need a woman to talk to, I fill an odd niche. Otherwise I seem more capable of getting into female events than your average male, having those who'd still care tend to demonstrate their intolerance more than their surrounding peers to the point of the problem becoming more theirs than mine. 

TC doesnt have dysphoria and doesnt care about misgendering, its a fetish to him and an insult to actual trans women. He even goes as far as to claim trans women are men

Cavalier said: 

TC doesnt have dysphoria and doesnt care about misgendering, its a fetish to him and an insult to actual trans women. He even goes as far as to claim trans women are men

 I think turncoat is trans. They were like this even in the nineties before this trans movement really started 

I've gotten in fights but never learned martial arts. TC makes a good point about how fights are serious. I mean I'd fight dirty as I can and whenever I'd try to fight clean even a little bit it would turn out terribly for me. Don't fall for the honorable fighting or whatever bs, just use everything you have and feel like in the moment and do not wait for the attacker to finally be dissuaded unless they are actually running away or you feel sure they have submitted even if you keep attacking a little bit after. Don't be afraid to see red basically.

Of course I would still get wiped by someone that knows martial arts although people that know martial arts are usually trained to avoid fights instead of picking them like most people do when someone else is not looking or when they feels insulted. Sadly, the court system sides with people that pick fights, (see: Fighting Words defense) they can even socially justify it instead of having a system that deeply condemns violence we have one that condones it as a way to "teach people how to behave and not rile up others."

Fighting honorably is viable if you know how to fight equally if not greater than their abilities. A kick to the chest can knock the wind out of them enough to have them second guess themselves if they're not trained to take blows yet, and the stomach will work even on a larger opponent. 

If the opponent blatantly has you beat in weight class, then you go for the legs. If even that looks like a death sentence then the balls, throat, eyes, all the vulnerable areas become more fair game targets. 

It takes more explaining to people if you've dug into their eye sockets rather than delivering a swift disabling kick, and if seen to have probable cause to defend yourself, like letting them swing first, can work in your favor as long as you are not having the fight become blatantly in your favor (like firing a gun at a guy for slapping you). 

Turncoat said: 

I hear that. My family is extremely religious and growing up......ugh WOW. I was bullied in school even back then and that wasn't nearly as bad as the nineties as I am younger than you.

Knowing martial arts worked as a shield, I only ever got in fights with people who didn't get what that meant and the fights always ended in one swift kick. 

I was always stronger than every other woman and so I always would kick ass if needed.

But even back then it was odd or unheard of. One difference was I was obsessed with so many boy things I had to hide it to fit in with the girls and I still didn't. In fact oftentimes I found myself sexually attracted to the other girls and had thoughta and feelings no one taught me about and I didn't understand. I felt like a freak. I hated myself. I kissed a girl. People around me hated me. 

The whole idea of 'boy things' and 'girl things' is silly anyway, and girls do that shit all the time. 

 

(I don't think it is look at David rhymer) 

Also yeah it's pretty clear that you've liked girls based plainly on how you've acted on this forum. You have both a sense of women being as if 'The Other' while relating more to men, and that other-ing is how attraction and animosity can form. 

 

The othering I don't think is related to the attraction. Sometimes women make me feel attractive in almost an aggressive way? Don't you do the same thing to men?

It can destroy your life. I had hormone therapy without consent and it was inconsistent and random in waves of getting none for two weeks and then suddenly getting a shit ton like two weeks worth all at once. The adults around me gave NO shits.

So the real problem is moreso how they did it. 

Yes. Your right. Although idk if I wanted this anyway. I would have rather grown as myself.

Oh I know exactly what you mean. Before knowing I am just intersex I thought I was trans, and suddenly I went from feeling alone like the only one with seeing hundreds of people around me online being seen in the exact same way and expressing the same thoughts I was having. The only thing is I think it's gone to far now, but It was great at first.

You were pretty aggressive about gender roles before this intersex thing, even trying to tell me motherhood would reprogram you into a proper mother.

(You and I both know not fitting your sex can be awkward and sometimes you get stupid ideas/do or say stupid things. 

Although this reminds me of my son. 

I really, really fucking miss my son.

 

 

You also tried to be 'one of the guys' on another website didn't you? You seemed to enjoy that more than playing the part of a woman, a part you seem notably stressed over. 

(How so?

 

Doesn't it make you uncomfortable at all being called he even a little bit or no? So basically you don't want to deal with people being inconsiderate. I always thought you didn't care either way. I only started calling you she becomes you seem so feminine to me and i don't really think about it.

I'd rather not be interrupting their train of thought, and taking the time to correct every person who does so is exhausting. 

It's one thing to have someone in your face about it, it's another to have them misgender by dropping the wrong title. The latter isn't really that bad if their intent doesn't appear otherwise malicious, like ffs it's one letter off. I mostly listen for the -e of he and she. 

(I at first called you she to make fun of how female you act and then be reminded me you were trans and I kept doing it because it's how I perceive you anyway and it just stuck. 

 

Yeah I understand what you are saying. Have you ever wondered if you are intersex maybe, like me? There are apparently people who go being like me their entire lives without ever knowing it.

My parts seem to work traditionally in a single direction in spite of my hormonal imbalance. The symptoms are subtler and I've gotten people pregnant before, so by physical or Darwinian standards it is not the case. 

Didn't you only get one woman pregnant?

 

People afraid of women who are comfortable with men have tended to see me sort of like a bridge, as it's not 'that gender' while still offering the expectations in social situations you'd expect out of estrogen. 

For people afraid of women who need a woman to talk to, I fill an odd niche. Otherwise I seem more capable of getting into female events than your average male, having those who'd still care tend to demonstrate their intolerance more than their surrounding peers to the point of the problem becoming more theirs than mine. 

Huh?

Turncoat said: 

Fighting honorably is viable if you know how to fight equally if not greater than their abilities. A kick to the chest can knock the wind out of them enough to have them second guess themselves if they're not trained to take blows yet, and the stomach will work even on a larger opponent. 

If the opponent blatantly has you beat in weight class, then you go for the legs. If even that looks like a death sentence then the balls, throat, eyes, all the vulnerable areas become more fair game targets. 

It takes more explaining to people if you've dug into their eye sockets rather than delivering a swift disabling kick, and if seen to have probable cause to defend yourself, like letting them swing first, can work in your favor as long as you are not having the fight become blatantly in your favor (like firing a gun at a guy for slapping you). 

 Why didn't you agree to meet me for a fight to settle things last year? It would have settled the tension so everything could go back to normal.

Cavalier said: 

TC doesnt have dysphoria and doesnt care about misgendering, its a fetish to him and an insult to actual trans women. He even goes as far as to claim trans women are men

 trans women are men, and it's a fetish for most of them   

Delora said: 

Turncoat said: 

Fighting honorably is viable if you know how to fight equally if not greater than their abilities. A kick to the chest can knock the wind out of them enough to have them second guess themselves if they're not trained to take blows yet, and the stomach will work even on a larger opponent. 

If the opponent blatantly has you beat in weight class, then you go for the legs. If even that looks like a death sentence then the balls, throat, eyes, all the vulnerable areas become more fair game targets. 

It takes more explaining to people if you've dug into their eye sockets rather than delivering a swift disabling kick, and if seen to have probable cause to defend yourself, like letting them swing first, can work in your favor as long as you are not having the fight become blatantly in your favor (like firing a gun at a guy for slapping you). 

 Why didn't you agree to meet me for a fight to settle things last year? It would have settled the tension so everything could go back to normal.

Fighting should be a last resort, or otherwise done in self-defense. 

Turncoat said: 

Delora said: 

Turncoat said: 

Fighting honorably is viable if you know how to fight equally if not greater than their abilities. A kick to the chest can knock the wind out of them enough to have them second guess themselves if they're not trained to take blows yet, and the stomach will work even on a larger opponent. 

If the opponent blatantly has you beat in weight class, then you go for the legs. If even that looks like a death sentence then the balls, throat, eyes, all the vulnerable areas become more fair game targets. 

It takes more explaining to people if you've dug into their eye sockets rather than delivering a swift disabling kick, and if seen to have probable cause to defend yourself, like letting them swing first, can work in your favor as long as you are not having the fight become blatantly in your favor (like firing a gun at a guy for slapping you). 

 Why didn't you agree to meet me for a fight to settle things last year? It would have settled the tension so everything could go back to normal.

Fighting should be a last resort, or otherwise done in self-defense. 

 Idk I kind of see fighting as get it all out and sort everything out and then go chill after cus it's settled, you know?