I just want to make sure it’s clear to everyone who I am and what I’m about, so you don’t have to try so hard to hurt me.
First, just want to say, I’m not a hater, I’m not jealous of anyone, unless I believe I have a chance with someone and they’re getting in more time with them than me, so since I lost the Trypt. race, I am divested and can no longer be effected by someone “getting” him.
If it’s clear he’s not for me, then why would I care who he is for? Like I don’t get that at all. Once it’s over, just move on. It’s not that hard. Once you move on, not necessarily to another person, but just realize you’ve lost, there’s no reason to wish others bad luck just because you couldn’t get the person.
Moving on means you’re no longer invested in the other person’s affairs, so anything you say about him or other people and him, will never even concern me, like it’s as important as Delora is to me. Like… not even on the peripheral.
Rejection closes the door to that person, like you can’t even see them anymore because the room they were in, is now closed off by a door 🚪 and that door is locked, so it’s just another door to walk past. I don’t even remember who is behind which door.
They all look the same when they’re closed, so why would I care who is trying to open that particular door or who enters that room? It’s like trying to tease me because TC is dating mEd, like… I literally could not care less.
I got rejected, not cheated on. Why would there be hard feelings or animosity or anger towards those he doesn’t reject? You can’t marry every person you meet, so there will be those who reject you. That’s just life. I have never understood wasting energy on stuff that’s dead and gone. Makes less than no sense.
Second, I only put mental effort into things that will benefit me in some way. I enjoy making people happy, and helping people realize things about themselves and improve themselves, so I will help people, or like care about what makes them sad sometimes, if they express their feelings at the appropriate time.
I dislike when people force others to listen to their problems when that wasn’t the reason for the connection or convo, so I guess I’m saying that I care when I’m prepared to care.
Third, I love Jesus and strive to improve myself, so I can be more like Jesus. Thus, I love the truth and hate lies. This means if you lie about me, I may get a bit annoyed and discount you as someone who I’m willing to interact with.
This is probably where you will have the most success in “hurting” me, although, the pain will come from my disgust with the lie, and annoyance over the fact that I can’t just replay a video of exactly what happened, and people seem to hate the truth, so they never listen to the person who has a near perfect memory.
However, if you tell me things that are true and that could be seen as mean, they’re appreciated because that’s how you know what to change, which is how you begin the work to grow, so calling me a bad Christian or anything like that, would be helpful, if you can articulate how I am.
If not, then you’re just wasting your energy because I don’t just adopt whatever people say. I reflect and analyze and research and stuff first. Then I make my decision based on the evidence and then I decide whether to work on the issue or that it’s not an issue at all, so please provide evidence.
Finally, the only thing in the past that could hurt me, was Allister ditching me and since that’s already a thing… I’m freaking invincible, so have your fun trying to get to me, but probably try the Christian angle if you want to get anywhere close to hurting me.
Unfortunately, this means nothing in this world can make me happy either, although my toddler comforts me, only God can make me happy now, so… I’m kind of stoic and just trying to be better, which is hard to attack. I just don’t want you to waste your time, so I wanted to let you know what I care the most about, since everything has changed now.
I’m not concerned with my looks, popularity or lack thereof, my relationships, other than my Jesus one, nor do I “have it out for anyone,” or wish anything bad on anyone, so these threads about random stuff is just a waste a time, which I believe you could better spend, doing almost anything else, so…
I guess if I’m that important to you, and you just want to spend every moment thinking about me, regardless of if it gets any specific result or a result at all, you can waste your time on me, but if I were you, I’d cut to the chase and focus on insults revolving around my relationship with God, since that’s the only avenue that could possibly ever pan out.
I’ll also add that my greatest weakness is that I HATE being a burden, so if you can put that in your insult in a way that makes sense, that’s probably the ultimate way to go about trying to hurt me. Even if it’s like loosely correct, I’ll feel terrible.
I don’t really analyze the truth of the burden statement as harshly as other claims because everyone is different and have different things they can handle and are willing to deal with, so someone could find me to be a burden for like… posting this.
I’d recognize it, but it wouldn’t hurt me because this is voluntary and is my diary, so it’s like… that’s a you thing, but if you can like somehow like make it make sense in some way. That will break my heart, almost as thoroughly as being rejected by Trypt. did.
Thanks for learning more about me and how to save time and energy by attacking me in a way that could get you the result you want.
