I just think simple nice thoughts. Something mundane things like thinking about breakfast helps even if I don't eat it. I still have to cope longer than I thought with my issues. Will I forget the trauma everyone put me through just because I wasn't born with a charming personality? Hopefully not.
You can tell when people just see you as that dead dog but I'm more secure in my petty income again just impatient. So not so dead yet, but I could only be interested in homosexuality as humanity is such a dissapointment lying about wanting to be civilized but then aping on people like me at the opportune moment. I just see their greedy smug little pig faces thinking they snuffed out all the people that were born with even a slightly wrong mindset in their eyes.