I used to be scared that umm celebrities, famous people, royalty and even wealthy people and popular people were too far gone in their own trauma and what seemed like darkness to me in the past and that these people would only drain me (this was because I used to worship an idolize them albeit begrudgingly) if I even saw their best most peaceful potential that they can possibly choose to seek being healed out of their trauma and even satanism and luciferianism and practicing black magic if they really practice this stuff, umm and I thought this because I had been bullied by "popular" people before and started labelling them all "too far gone narcissists that I begrudgingly have to acknowledge the existence of and that they recieve positive attention and praise even though behaving in abusive ways sometimes and most people just did not seem to care and so I needed to supress that I was offended by it and then eventually exploded in anger and rage because of it"
umm, I am changing my mind about this and I am now going to see their highest best potentials and that they too just like everyone else might be seeking relief and healing from their personal traumas
this is like, a huge shift for me and I am taking this step with caution and I will have to discuss with my shaman mentor some more about this I feel scared, but I do believe that love can overcome everything just, personal protective healthy boundaries need to be maintained
this is huge for me, guys I was really hurt by "narcissists" in the past when I did not really have any personal boundaries to speak of and was drained of almost all of my energy, but I am pretty sure that it was a boundary problem and not actually those that I labelled "narcissists" in my mind problem
feeling scared
