There was this homeless woman who was begging for small change.
I offered her $10 for a blowjob. I don't know what prices sex workers charge but it was better than nothing. She wasn't in a bad shape. She looked like she was homeless for maybe a few days.
Anyway, she declined.
I do shit like this impulsively, and it's scary. I'm reminded I don't really know myself.
There was this homeless woman who was begging for small change.
I offered her $10 for a blowjob. I don't know what prices sex workers charge but it was better than nothing. She wasn't in a bad shape. She looked like she was homeless for maybe a few days.
Anyway, she declined.
You saw a person in a vulnerable situation and immediately tried to take advantage of them.
I do shit like this impulsively, and it's scary. I'm reminded I don't really know myself.
then changed the subject to make it sound like you are somehow the victim of your own actions, (scaring yourself.)
You are a bad person and no one will tell you otherwise just because you decided to admit to it.
Maybe more than $10 next time, and make yourself presentable to save some money.
I do shit like this impulsively, and it's scary. I'm reminded I don't really know myself.
What else have you done that after the fact surprised you?
Maybe more than $10 next time, and make yourself presentable to save some money.
$10 was enough for a person who was begging for change. What I wanted was a limit to them.
I'm above average looking. The real problem is I can't maintain relationships; I lose interest and ghost people after a short while.
I go through episodes that turn me hyper social for a day or two, followed by episodes that have me withdrawing from social activities for weeks at times.
It's bizarre and puts me in a state of constant suffering.
There was this homeless woman who was begging for small change.
I offered her $10 for a blowjob. I don't know what prices sex workers charge but it was better than nothing. She wasn't in a bad shape. She looked like she was homeless for maybe a few days.
Anyway, she declined.
You saw a person in a vulnerable situation and immediately tried to take advantage of them.
For somebody who was conditioned to lack shame, in the process becoming indifferent to guilt as well, I am an angel.
People who went through less shit than I did turned into mass shooters and serial killers.
You should appreciate the fact I am making an effort to be fair (would've given her the money), even if it involves a vulnerable person.
Maybe more than $10 next time, and make yourself presentable to save some money.
$10 was enough for a person who was begging for change. What I wanted was a limit to them.
So you didn't actually want the blowjob then?
As despicable as it is. You realised you were wrong. So you're not a bad person. Bad people don't understand that they have done a wrong, They usually try to justify there wrong doing, failing miserabley at doing so.
U realized you messed up. You understand that this might be a bad aspect to who you are. But you don't need to continue that way.
We all fuck up. Forgive yourself, love yourself. Be kind to yourself.
Don't do that to people please.
It's freelance sex work, he's providing her with an occupational opportunity with room for advancement, and when she said no he walked away.
I have never negatively judged people who have done a wrong. Whether their crime is severe or whether it's bad. I always look at them and understand that they are human.
You should never look at a criminal with hatred ever. All things are forgiveable in my book, even murder. The only time I judge is when they are old enough to understand better and their proud of the crime they've committed.
Now if the person is young or demented or suffers from a disease that makes them act the way they act. I actually have sympathy for them. People are never perfect and I have the most sympathy for people who have no self control. We all have bad impulses and urges. Admit it. The ability to not control behaviour against your own will must be a living hell.
So show sympathy. Some of these people have neurological issues and self control issues beyond their control. Who are you to judge, with your perfect life.
