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I got the vision of hollow bone inside of me which means that my ego is going to go soo byebye  they are about to go ham on my ego

I am about to get fucking wrecked lol obliterated and not in a drunk way because I do not even drink anymore  I am soooooooooooo dead

it is fun though in a weird way ?  like being just flung about and beaten to a pulp you know  like amazingly fun  you do not need alcohol to party

Sounds pretty bad, but I guess at least it's not Judge Judy in your head.

Tryptamine said: 

Sounds pretty bad, but I guess at least it's not Judge Judy in your head.

yeah and I do not know if I would recommend this path to everyone anymore  but I will probably get healing superpowers from this plus getting rid of the egoic attachments feels freeing but I hope that spirit goes gentle on me because I really do have a compassionate soul and the highest good for everyone in mind  😭  like I just want to make all of the pain and suffering go away for people and I know that I might not be able to bring heaven down on earth but if I thought there was a way I would put everything into trying to do it  and God knows that God knows my heart

Why are you sad?

Tryptamine said: 

Why are you sad?

I thought that I was going to be mostly pain and torment free from now on because I thought that I had discovered healing methods that prevented pain and torment  but it seems that I was wrong  but spirit is turning me more compassionate and less egoic and at least that is progress

healingqueen said: 

Tryptamine said: 

Why are you sad?

 

I thought that I was going to be mostly pain and torment free from now on because I thought that I had discovered healing methods that prevented pain and torment  but it seems that I was wrong  but spirit is turning me more compassionate and less egoic and at least that is progress

 

 

There's probably still a lot of pain and torment left, no?

Not suicide encouragement, just wondering how you personally balance that the disappointments may still be stacking up.