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there has to be a safer way to heal but I am still going to have shamanic work done on me I just do not want to become a shaman unless there is a guarantee that I will not be putting myself at risk for more entity attachments

The more the merrier I say!

I still think it's an improvement on your part that you are willing to accept help, rather than have to do it all yourself. 

"the shamanic initiation generally consists also, as we know, in the candidate’s being mutilated and reduced to a skeleton"  (like in a vision not by other people)  I keep reading about this and it is like everything else has already been stripped from me-  why not my flesh and eyes too ?  but this is not healthy and I should not be thinking like this but at the same time I know deep down that I could handle whatever horrors because my life has already been a living hell 

I could very easily become a shaman and probably a powerful one because I have been in energetic communication with the spiritual realm my entire life but it sucks because all I really want is to be filled with love  and the more I read the more I am questioning if shamanism and love are even compatible

Okay already I see a conflict forming. 

You first said: 

healingqueen said: 

*proceeds to get bullied by demons in the shower*  lol ego is such a tempting little seductress  "shamanism is stupid you're not even a real shaman you haven't even healed yourself yet  (valid point)  people don't respect shamans anymore they just think that you're crazy too bad it isn't back in the tribal days when people would respect you and make you their leader you suck so much"  :p

 

this bullying isn't even that bad it could be so much worse

Then following that you begin to consider quitting Shamanism?