and it could take years but I can still spiritually and physically heal myself in the meantime I am not trying to enter the spirit realm without know what I am doing no matter how much that I trust my concept of God and in love and healing overcoming the lower energies of humanity
there is a lot to learn but I do feel capable of mastering the calling and the temptations to use shamanism for selfish reasons and evil will still be there but ultimately I prefer the higher more loving vibrations soo I am not trying to add any more negative karma or whatever to deal with on top of what I am already in the process of releasing myself from