My father died 2 weeks ago in the hands of my mother, she was helping him eat, in a room next to where I was. I had helped them 15 minutes prior, to move him in a seating position.
Sorry for your loss. My father died five years ago this month. Still stings.
My father died 2 weeks ago in the hands of my mother, she was helping him eat, in a room next to where I was. I had helped them 15 minutes prior, to move him in a seating position.
Sorry for your loss. My father died five years ago this month. Still stings.
Wait... five years ago he died, seven years ago's how long Chapo claims you've been tailing him.
Did you begin your affections towards him before your father's death?
Thank you all.
My father died 2 weeks ago in the hands of my mother, she was helping him eat, in a room next to where I was. I had helped them 15 minutes prior, to move him in a seating position.
You seem to be taking it fairly well.
I am fairly certain I am on the psychopathic spectrum and I liked my father and wished him well, but I never felt much, good or bad for him.
I felt more sadness for the rest of my family, watching their grief, but even at the funeral, I couldn't get visibly emotional, while so many people around me were. It made me uncomfortable tbh, that I am not getting emotional. And that was my most emotional day.
I can be extremely emotional, but my brain is very selective.
Otherwise, it's usually just anger and variations of it that I feel more intensely. The rest is shallow compared to other people.
Even after over a decade of trying to figure it out, I am still unsure about my emotions fully. Why I am like that, how different am I and should I do something about it and whatnot. I decided to just accept whatever it is and adapt to it now. But I still get curious about it.
On the topic, I've been helping my father and mother for 2 years with his illness. I will always have a connection with my mother, she has helped me in many ways and I want her to know I appreciate it, plus she can still help me in the future.
My father died 2 weeks ago in the hands of my mother, she was helping him eat, in a room next to where I was. I had helped them 15 minutes prior, to move him in a seating position.
Sorry for your loss. My father died five years ago this month. Still stings.
Wait... five years ago he died, seven years ago's how long Chapo claims you've been tailing him.
Did you begin your affections towards him before your father's death?
If you must know I met Chapo ten years ago. My father was sick for about six years starting the year before that. Is that sympathy I detect or no.
Thank you all.
My father died 2 weeks ago in the hands of my mother, she was helping him eat, in a room next to where I was. I had helped them 15 minutes prior, to move him in a seating position.
You seem to be taking it fairly well.
I am fairly certain I am on the psychopathic spectrum and I liked my father and wished him well, but I never felt much, good or bad for him.
I felt more sadness for the rest of my family, watching their grief, but even at the funeral, I couldn't get visibly emotional, while so many people around me were. It made me uncomfortable tbh, that I am not getting emotional. And that was my most emotional day.
I can be extremely emotional, but my brain is very selective.
Otherwise, it's usually just anger and variations of it that I feel more intensely. The rest is shallow compared to other people.
Even after over a decade of trying to figure it out, I am still unsure about my emotions fully. Why I am like that, how different am I and should I do something about it and whatnot. I decided to just accept whatever it is and adapt to it now. But I still get curious about it.
On the topic, I've been helping my father and mother for 2 years with his illness. I will always have a connection with my mother, she has helped me in many ways and I want her to know I appreciate it, plus she can still help me in the future.
I can kinda relate. I never mourned my Father's death.
We buried him in Trinidad and over there funerals are more celebratory where people laugh and cry. I was fine, my siblings not so much but not too bad. I never felt awkward for not putting on a sobby show I kept it real.
As for the subject, I do not look after my parents, though on the brighter side, my Mother and I are talking again.
Personally, I think you've showcasing good mental health by not taking it so bad. That doesn't make you bad either.
Those who mourn will find better mental health when they're done, while those who never stop mourning are weak and have a real problem on their hands.
My father died 2 weeks ago in the hands of my mother, she was helping him eat, in a room next to where I was. I had helped them 15 minutes prior, to move him in a seating position.
Sorry for your loss. My father died five years ago this month. Still stings.
Wait... five years ago he died, seven years ago's how long Chapo claims you've been tailing him.
Did you begin your affections towards him before your father's death?If you must know I met Chapo ten years ago. My father was sick for about six years starting the year before that. Is that sympathy I detect or no.
Moreso sorting out the details, the narrative seemed like you met him after your dad died.
How different were things between you and Chapo before he died? Were you the same person back then, or did it change you?
i visit my mommy and daddy once every few months at most. it's not enough! my mommy is very lonely and my daddy drinks a lot, still. Things are much better than when i was a kid, but when i'm visiting it's palpable how the room is filled with things left unspoken. Our lives have changed and with it, dysfunctional elements have become less visible. but I notice i am still very much defensive and on edge during visit time
still, it's up to me to fix us. how do you engage with your mommy and daddy? are they together? are you good with each other? do your mommy and daddy love each other? mine don't, but they won't divorce. 2 l8 4 them at this stage.
Visiting mine rn and it is in fact a living hell because she's screaming constantly
My father died 2 weeks ago in the hands of my mother, she was helping him eat, in a room next to where I was. I had helped them 15 minutes prior, to move him in a seating position.
Sorry for your loss. My father died five years ago this month. Still stings.
Wait... five years ago he died, seven years ago's how long Chapo claims you've been tailing him.
Did you begin your affections towards him before your father's death?If you must know I met Chapo ten years ago. My father was sick for about six years starting the year before that. Is that sympathy I detect or no.
doubtful
Thank you all.
My father died 2 weeks ago in the hands of my mother, she was helping him eat, in a room next to where I was. I had helped them 15 minutes prior, to move him in a seating position.
You seem to be taking it fairly well.
I am fairly certain I am on the psychopathic spectrum and I liked my father and wished him well, but I never felt much, good or bad for him.
I felt more sadness for the rest of my family, watching their grief, but even at the funeral, I couldn't get visibly emotional, while so many people around me were. It made me uncomfortable tbh, that I am not getting emotional. And that was my most emotional day.
I can be extremely emotional, but my brain is very selective.
Otherwise, it's usually just anger and variations of it that I feel more intensely. The rest is shallow compared to other people.
Even after over a decade of trying to figure it out, I am still unsure about my emotions fully. Why I am like that, how different am I and should I do something about it and whatnot. I decided to just accept whatever it is and adapt to it now. But I still get curious about it.
On the topic, I've been helping my father and mother for 2 years with his illness. I will always have a connection with my mother, she has helped me in many ways and I want her to know I appreciate it, plus she can still help me in the future.
i mean, what kinda upbringing did you have? i do not get psychopath vibes from you at all. more so detached emotionally, but not the lack of empathy and manipulativeness that usually comes with aspd
Thank you all.
My father died 2 weeks ago in the hands of my mother, she was helping him eat, in a room next to where I was. I had helped them 15 minutes prior, to move him in a seating position.
You seem to be taking it fairly well.
I am fairly certain I am on the psychopathic spectrum and I liked my father and wished him well, but I never felt much, good or bad for him.
I felt more sadness for the rest of my family, watching their grief, but even at the funeral, I couldn't get visibly emotional, while so many people around me were. It made me uncomfortable tbh, that I am not getting emotional. And that was my most emotional day.
I can be extremely emotional, but my brain is very selective.
Otherwise, it's usually just anger and variations of it that I feel more intensely. The rest is shallow compared to other people.
Even after over a decade of trying to figure it out, I am still unsure about my emotions fully. Why I am like that, how different am I and should I do something about it and whatnot. I decided to just accept whatever it is and adapt to it now. But I still get curious about it.
On the topic, I've been helping my father and mother for 2 years with his illness. I will always have a connection with my mother, she has helped me in many ways and I want her to know I appreciate it, plus she can still help me in the future.
i mean, what kinda upbringing did you have? i do not get psychopath vibes from you at all. more so detached emotionally, but not the lack of empathy and manipulativeness that usually comes with aspd
I am not AsPD, it's more likely I could get an SPD dx.
But AsPD is not the same as a psychopath, and psychopath is not even an official term. I am not manipulative(in personal relationships, but I can be in other types), or impulsive in general (I have a few moments).
Emotional detachment is there for sure. I also do not think I have a lot of affectionate empathy towards most people, I have it to an extent, but I think I can ignore it with ease if I choose to. I try to be nice to people because it is usually better to be nice unless I have a reason not to be. I do deeply care about my few friends.
In addition to that, over the years I've read articles about psychopaths that I relate to, like being able to switch on and off empathy, having strong emotions only to select people, and how anger manifests (where ur skin doesn't get redder and you don't sweat, and you can still think clearly, and it usually seems to come out of nowhere and lasts only a few seconds/minutes).
I tortured a cat when I was younger and had this idea in my head for a while to find more cats to torture. I love cats now tho, yet I can't say I feel regret about what I did. I can't do such a thing now. Cats really do make me happy now and are the only animal I can't watch abuse videos of. I like random cats way way more than random people.
And I really do not care about social norms in general, but this one I'd say is the smallest symptom. Because of this I even thought I could be autistic, but I was asocial by choice until I chose otherwise, and learned a lot about social interaction, something autistic people can't do (+ I have no sensitivity issues to stimuli or tantrums for the more severe cases). I can still sound autistic, but not in a clinical sense lol. I still care that people don't think I am weird in a bad way.
I do not think I am very high on the psychopath spectrum if I am there at all, but I think I might be on it. I do experience fear(but fuck me if I know if it's more or less or right at the average), but over the years it has become less and less, could be because I am way more confident in myself too. The fact I do experience fear is probably why I was/am not so impulsive.
It is like borderline psychopathic tendencies, I lack the impulsiveness that would have had me do things to solidify them.
