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The pursuit of comfort in a world of tension, to understand the paradox of feeling like I have significance in an uncaring and purposeless world. 

compassionatequeen said: 

this is what I want from life  https://sociopathcommunity.com/Forum/Topic/25787/1/what-i-really-want-from-life

all that I want is to feel positive emotions-  whatever adds to my positive emotions I would like to be surrounded by and to be a part of my life,  I would like to be a positive emotions magnet and positive emotions for me include joyfulness and peacefulness and happiness


what has caused me to feel positive emotions before-  yummy food,  passionate sex,  attractive handsome boyfriend,  physical health,  all of my needs and desires being quickly and easily manifested and received by myself,  self-love,  meditating,  journaling,  researching,  beautiful nature scenery,  adorable animals especially cats and kittens,  good fortune,  feeling lucky and blessed,  financial prosperity and abundance



these are all of my favorite things that I love and want in my life

Personally, from having been living out of my room for a bit now, I've seen that a lot of what is pleasurable can have diminishing returns in a setting that is too comfortable. There has to be something to interrupt the freedom and fun to give that freedom and fun meaning, otherwise it begins to just feel normal, and with too much time that normalcy becomes redundant and, further, uncomfortable. 

A lot of what made me really appreciate things was my time away from it, whether it was traveling making me miss home or even back when I was working over how it made me wish I could be doing 'other things', making said other things become better like being hungry for it. It's like how when at school, time off feels like everything, yet once far enough into Summer Vacation it didn't really feel as good anymore. 

It is often the constraints that push out creative outlets, too, like how being bored in class often prompts people to take up doodling while otherwise feeling less incentive to draw during their free time. I believe that, rather than having good things be all the time, that they should be well proportioned so that how good they feel can be maximized, like letting yourself become hungry before eating a homecooked meal rather than just snacking on things in the fridge. 

Also shoutout to Jun's Kitchen, this man knows how to live comfortably in a nice and balanced way through simple efficiency and quality, in a way worth modeling off of: 

A great deal of things though imagining them all fitting together seems strange and somethings might have to be excised compared to others, and these change based on if apocalypse comes or not, since I feel like apocalypse is near.


What I want from life for myself is strength, I want to become extremely fit, and well-read eventually. I want to be able to survive in a jungle if needed. I want to travel across the Earth, and learn about all sorts of cultures and understand Humanity better.

My current pursuits are just job, to obtain money, to eventually get my friends and I a place to live and prepare for the apocalypse.

I have fanciful dreams of carrying out my own judgement, through violent  mind-shattering absurdity. 

If there were any secrets of the universe that could unlocked, that's what I'd want too, if lovecraftian-esque entities existed, then I would want to bare witness to them perhaps even ascend to something like that if possible. 

Construct a AI God, merge my mind with it. 

Obviously fanciful things, but to reduce it to its most comprehensive form.

I want to try psychedelics, understand mankind as a whole more by traveling and learning about the many forms of civilization and culture we took in our development across this rock, become self-sufficient, and start my own community with the help of those who follow me. 

That's all I'd say for now. I see a mix of deep and shallow reasonings potentially.


Otherwise, finding love is a big thing that must exist somewhere and does take form, its just something I try to push away as love is complicated, and requires a commitment that I don't know I can keep, if my other plans get in my way. Time will tell what is to come. 

God's approval, and happiness.

Life already started, many years ago for us all. The bigger question is, what do you want now ?

a shmoke and a pancake

Challenges, chill, food, drink and sex

Is there anything else?