and the accompanying behaviors not that I am 100 percent perfect at being forgiving and unconditionally loving in the present but there have been a lot of improvements
and I will always regret trying to put spells on people that could potentially cause harm but I undid all of those spells and I will never even try to do that stuff again and I probably did not even do it the right way anyway
when I left christianity I just reverted back to some of my old behavior because I did not have time to realize that I had calmed down and do not even feel "avenged" doing that stuff anymore
I'm like, I'm just a different person now idk I've matured past that type of behavior
I am way more into forgiving and unconditionally loving myself and other people and I do not think that this is going to change for me any time soon I love this new me, this softer me this loving me this craving for benevolence harm to none as much as possible version of me is my favorite version so far and I am going to do my very best to maintain her because I am falling in love with her lol she has such a lovely calming sweet gentle presence