and on the topic of flying- people fly in airplanes and helicopters and paragliding and paraglide and bungee jump every day seems like flying to me
Have you told your mental health practitioner that you visit this site and journal or post here, and what you write? Like have you showed them or told them what you write here in the same detail as you write it here
Here's the last I'm going to say about it:
There are two ways about "believing" that you can fly. One, you think the power of thought and will are what will carry you into the air. Two, you are someone like the Wright Brothers and building a flying machine. What's the difference? One has had a gauge on facts-of-the-matter. Or don't. One ends in an untimely death, the other in the invention of human aviation.
It's great to believe in yourself and have confidence, there's none of that in here denying that. It's a matter of context and probably the way things are being said than intended.
That's it. Best of luck.
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Your need for fantasy reminded me of this. I was hesitant to share because Vaknin can be very blunt, as he’s not a “nice therapist” that’s not what he does, so it may be very destabilizing or too harsh at the time (may not be ready) to hear this and in this way. It takes time to heal and part of healing is accessing as much of your truth as possible. You’re very straight forward about your fantasy thinking and seem to be aware and blunt about it so I think you may be open to other people being blunt about their opinions about PD’s. I think it’s kind of funny that people have dedicated their lives to trying to begin to understand things like what psychiatry has deemed borderline personality. It just goes to show that what you’re dealing with is very complex and difficult, so give yourself some credit for how far you’ve been able to come with IFS and whatever steps you feel positive about.
https://healingchildhoodtrauma.tumblr.com/post/675727188350386176/pete-walker-ma-psychotherapy
You talked a lot about “shoulding” and it reminded me of this post I read ^ (great book). About shoulding (there’s a section on it)
yeah, ultimately I am going to keep believing what I want to believe and going about achieving my goals the way that I want to achieve them
so anyone who has a problem with that can fuck off, point blank 🤷♀️ Idk what else to tell you, and I am not going to sugarcoat it
Also on the topic of “nice therapist” I’m going to be real. The best therapy I have had, is a healthy balance of nice and truthful therapy. So they told me the truth it wasn’t pretty and I didn’t like it but I was in the mindset where I was strong enough to hear that and continue working my own recovery
for some this might not be as successful but I’m just going to be honest some of the most effective things that worked on me very long term with people telling me the dead honest truth
it doesn’t work right away you don’t immediately leave the room and go wow I’ve achieved so much clarity I’ve jumped 500 pages ahead and one session that’s not how it works but over the years of time that one brain of truth they told me slowly sort of helped lift out of me other necessary truths that ultimately contributed to my own healing and satisfaction and mental health
but just a cold hard truth on its own doesn’t work it’s a balance like I said cold hard truth and then a lot of other work and recovery and therapy and some nice therapy as needed to some validation is needed to etc. it’s a healthy balance
I mean but what you choose to believe is the truth ultimately depends on what your goals are because what your goals are blind you to all different sorts of alternate versions of reality (this is coming from myself, a manifestation professional)
a manifestation professional
I'm sorry a what now?
and on the topic of flying- people fly in airplanes and helicopters and paragliding and paraglide and bungee jump every day seems like flying to me
When a man rides a horse, he is not running the speed of the horse.