yeah I kind of feel like that, minus the way that she looks and the regenerative abilities and I feel like there is only one of me and I only believe that I am immortal because I believe that all of our spirits are immortal and can have many different lifetimes and even incarnate as different lifeforms like aliens and other stuff as our spirits keep learning and experiencing and evolving
I like actively am staying out of any more relationships except for if Michael actually pursues me because of this stuff happening to me every time that I get into a relationship because the guy goes crazy over me and I was hoping that maybe some man out there could control and tame me without trying to kill me, but he has already threatened to kill me so whatever maybe that is my only fate maybe it is for the best idk I am trying to learn therapy stuff and be a good woman and stop causing so much trouble
and I get so paranoid that I will be tortured and killed but then it never happens Idk why but I have always been paranoid about that my whole life maybe because deep down I really am quite an innocent female, a good girl type and there are so many people who have evil violent intentions out there
I have paranoia too, and what helps me?
A lot of your rationale for why you'd be important enough to be attacked actually reinforces your belief of being attacked, rather than convincing yourself that you're too powerful to be touched.
By contrast, I tend to remind myself that I am not important, and that through that that almost no one would bother with it over me being nobody.
tbh men tend to feel like wanting to kill what cannot be conquered, and for whatever reason men always seem to feel like they cannot conquer me hence why men like Spatial Mind is a more recent example want to try to "break me" (his words) by calling me all sorts of horrible things and saying that he wants to do violent things to me like strangle me and so on
Spatial Mind isn't really a typical person though, I wouldn't gauge all men based on his behaviors.
so my fear of this is for a reason, because men see me as a threat just for me being my normal harmless self, but obviously even more of a threat when I am making active threats towards them which I only ever started doing because of becoming sick of their abusive behavior towards me just because of seeing me as unconquerable, but now I am back to not making threats or doing anything aggressive again because I have tried to forgive
Perhaps they faced something similar that had them feel the need to make threats towards you, much like how you've felt the need to threaten others?
