song and dance is stupid. almost feels like the people are not real just robots
It's the way of the world, and your struggle with it is inhibiting your potential.
I personally got a lot of it down from theater training. With Acting they teach you to look at how people behave and learn to model off of it to portray similar characters, which is a great foundation for Psychology further along. They have you look at their posture, their cadence, literally their 'song and dance' they have through life.
i would never be happy if i lived my life that way.
Are you happy now?
i dont know, and im not saying that to prove a point i really dont know. but what i do know, is that doing that would not help me be any happier, and it would make me less happy.
Being able to talk to people more easily and having an easier time making friends would make you less happy?
not THOSE people. people i LIKE. like my husband, or my brother. or the muslim people from the halal market next door.
Some understanding of convention is helpful for socializing. While things like small talk can feel like a waste of time, it helps push other areas along that can make things feel less lonely.
fuck that.
What's wrong with small talk?
i never understood the fucking term small talk, its talk there is no size its a fucking conversation not a lady bug on a planet
there are less fucked ways to success, and different forms of success
Communication is one of the biggest parts of success these days, but if you had enough capital you could hire people to do those parts for you.
no im going to go off grid with my brother instead and eat carrots and celery sticks in the fucking woods.
Seems like running from the problem, doesn't it?
yes. and im happy with that. do zombie survivalists run from problems? fuck yeah they do, and it works. wtf is wrong with running? nothing. its good exercise.
dont non autists get it? a huge part of our brain wiring is we dont WANT or CARE to act like neurotypicals or be them
That comes from not having the room to relate to core concepts that grant them social cohesion, over how you'd have to do more work to accomplish it than they did.
i have other things that im much better at that therefore benifit me even more on a work to benefit ratio i would rather be doing, such as studying how to get the fuk away from neurotypicals on "my" land at the library
So in other words it's too hard so it's not worth doing? You'd rather do things that are easy?
no. thats cherry picking a part of what im saying and leaving a lot out, its misleading. I'd rather do things that are more beneficial to me per bit of effort and time, as anyone would. That's how everything succeeds from plants to animals to fungi to companies to factories to people. less input with more output is just a better formula.
