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I have alters but they do not have different names they are just different parts of me,  and I dissociate a lot  IFS therapy works the best for people with DID and for anyone who has self sabotaging parts,  which you seem to  everyone actually has multiple parts / subpersonalities,  but in people with MPD some of them take on different names and identities  I like mildly have that,  but I still feel all "me"  but anyway,  I would recommend IFS / Internal Family Systems therapy even for yourself without having that disorder  It is the most effective and profound breakthrough inducing therapy that I have participated in so far  :)

hope that this helps

that would deflect responsibility from you and probably provide a distraction, but also within that is an acknowledgement that your current circumstances are surmountable & your issue is more of momentum

we all make choices; i for one was content to be an alcoholic through most of the time since i'd be on this site. of course things eventually started to pile up both materially and mentally to a point where my life felt like a fucked up jenga game, and there was no correct solution. i imagine some with depression can relate to so many things stacking up that it feels like there's no way out. you at least present as having an internal locus of control, which i think is 75% of what matters. can't really say anything about the other 25%, except that new environments work wonders for me. and i mean totally new, not a different relative or whatever

I highly recommend, i raise you, self compassion. 

I’m not a mental health professional obviously. But in my experience as you implement fundamentals like self compassion into your thoughts and behaviors, it could help. 

I highly recommend seeking support and researching materials to aid in your recovery as well, under guidance of a professional. 

As far as wishing for amnesia goes, I don’t recommend it because. This gives all the control to this one thing and this is not necessarily a less painful path to take. Refusal to take responsibility or inability to take responsibility for reality- it may have been a necessary part of your survival at one time and that’s why you learned it in the form of dissociation. 

But it ultimately lends you to more than likely retraumatizing, prolonging pain, and forming bonds like trauma bonding and shit like that over and over again until you get real and face the real real. 

If you are in a constant state of amnesia for example, it will be harder to be aware of what you need to face, and you’ll remain subject to repeated behaviors thoughts emotions that make you suffer. 

Blanc said: 

I highly recommend, i raise you, self compassion. 

 

I’m not a mental health professional obviously. But in my experience as you implement fundamentals like self compassion into your thoughts and behaviors, it could help. 

 

I highly recommend seeking support and researching materials to aid in your recovery as well, under guidance of a professional. 

oh yes self-compassion for sure,  but it is not always so easy to master and IFS really focuses on mastering self-compassion which is why I always recommend IFS

People do get better, but the problem is, before they realize it, they'll speak their illness back into place.

What I just said, I don't expect just anyone to tske note or understand it to be the case with themselves.

You don't have to be mentally ill to be lazy, but you know that. It does illustrate how intense your shame can be, when you wish you were so fucked up, people will expect less of you.

Without a doubt you care.

I'm not saying you should become inconsiderate or anything, but it'll help if you cared less of what people make of you. If so you might not be motivated, but you'll have an easier time focusing and probably surprise the others, though, wanting to impress could be a part of this thing making you cringe at yourself.

You need to be abused until it's more difficult to break you. Some will think this is foolish, but the ones who stay cool under stress have better mental health. The way is to not take it personal, like it's going to work out for you.

What motivates you ? 

Blanc said: 

As far as wishing for amnesia goes, I don’t recommend it because. This gives all the control to this one thing and this is not necessarily a less painful path to take. Refusal to take responsibility or inability to take responsibility for reality- it may have been a necessary part of your survival at one time and that’s why you learned it in the form of dissociation. 

But it ultimately lends you to more than likely retraumatizing, prolonging pain, and forming bonds like trauma bonding and shit like that over and over again until you get real and face the real real. 

If you are in a constant state of amnesia for example, it will be harder to be aware of what you need to face, and you’ll remain subject to repeated behaviors thoughts emotions that make you suffer. 

 you are right and the truth is that the desire I have for these things just come from my desire to self harm

this thread was largely posted because I just wanted to say something I didn't have another place to say and to practice posting my thoughts to get my post count up

Canary said: 

People do get better, but the problem is, before they realize it, they'll speak their illness back into place.

What I just said, I don't expect just anyone to tske note or understand it to be the case with themselves.

You don't have to be mentally ill to be lazy, but you know that. It does illustrate how intense your shame can be, when you wish you were so fucked up, people will expect less of you.

Without a doubt you care.

I'm not saying you should become inconsiderate or anything, but it'll help if you cared less of what people make of you. If so you might not be motivated, but you'll have an easier time focusing and probably surprise the others, though, wanting to impress could be a part of this thing making you cringe at yourself.

You need to be abused until it's more difficult to break you. Some will think this is foolish, but the ones who stay cool under stress have better mental health. The way is to not take it personal, like it's going to work out for you.

What motivates you ? 

 the first half of what you said I think is true, my insecurity and care for what other people think has sky rocketed in the past year.

I have not felt motivated in 2 years. I'm having a hard time remembering what motivates me.