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I know that I was not in a good place in the past,  with my harsh judgmental inner critic raging at me to make something of myself and desiring to start a Youtube channel from that headspace,  but what if this time around I try for the same goal but this time with my harsh judgmental inner critic calmed down and pacified ?

Also,  a major shift needs to be genuine compassion for myself and other people-  having the goal of being compassionate is one thing but I need to figure out how to make it authentic and plentifully available to my personality

There's a threshold between sympathy (feeling for someone) and empathy (feeling as if you were someone).  Both could be motivations for compassionate action, but you would need to find out which supply you draw from and how much motivation it gives you.  At some point, I think purest compassion transcends this motivational assessment and use, becoming that "authentic" (quotes because it might be a superfluous term) compassion you seek.  Where it becomes part of your nature; a habit, automatic.  Again, this is also about overcoming self-thought and the drive for comparison and achievement:  Doing right for its own sake.

Where you seem to be continuously headed with this, it is still pointing toward Buddhist teachings.

JesusistheKing said: 

I plan to make a comeback as a spiritual healer but first I must heal myself

It's good to have a goal anyway, and that is a more realistic view than trying to heal people while others don't see you that way. 

By what metric will you gauge if something is broken or not though? 

please do not naysay-  because you do not know the future just as much as I do not,  and neither of us know for sure of what my self-healing capabilities are

Not saying it's impossible but this isn't the first time you've tried to help yourself. 

That being said your views are at least a tad bit more grounded than they were before. I would still recommend Alan Watts as a good intro to the concepts, as peace is a complicated thing. 

the first step was to become willing to face my shadow,  the aspects of my personality that scare me the most,  as I have been doing these past couple days

What have you found so far? 

Buttered Toast said: 

There's a threshold between sympathy (feeling for someone) and empathy (feeling as if you were someone). 

^This. 

While empathy is a typical pathway for sympathy, sympathy does not need empathy to exist and, conversely, empathy can exist without any sympathy for the ones who gave them those feelings. 

There's definitely sensitive types out there who aim to block others out over the opening rather than using it to get closer to people, treating the data like it's noise. 

I do not think that I will be famous for it,  not at all  but I think that I could at least help heal myself from the grip of narcissistic attachments and behavior and maybe some other people

one day choosing compassion and forgiveness is going to pay off for me,  Idk how and idk in what way but I am not going to allow the darkness to take over me  I am just not

JesusistheKing said: 

I do not think that I will be famous for it,  not at all  but I think that I could at least help heal myself from the grip of narcissistic attachments and behavior and maybe some other people

 

one day choosing compassion and forgiveness is going to pay off for me,  Idk how and idk in what way but I am not going to allow the darkness to take over me  I am just not

 Really, setting aside the whole drive for selflessness in compassion and altruism, it could only stand to make you a better person, anyway.  The pay off will be knowing that all you achieve has been also producing good (or at least with a mind for less harm), which usually also means people will generally be more responsive and genuine in return.  Not that it is easy or won't take work or have plenty of obstacles or that you shouldn't be careful of being taken advantage of or have...(the list goes on).

Buttered Toast said: 

JesusistheKing said: 

I do not think that I will be famous for it,  not at all  but I think that I could at least help heal myself from the grip of narcissistic attachments and behavior and maybe some other people

 

one day choosing compassion and forgiveness is going to pay off for me,  Idk how and idk in what way but I am not going to allow the darkness to take over me  I am just not

 Really, setting aside the whole drive for selflessness in compassion and altruism, it could only stand to make you a better person, anyway.  The pay off will be knowing that all you achieve has been also producing good (or at least with a mind for less harm), which usually also means people will generally be more responsive and genuine in return.  Not that it is easy or won't take work or have plenty of obstacles or that you shouldn't be careful of being taken advantage of or have...(the list goes on).

^  Yes I agree,  I do not see there being anything to lose really  I would like to live a life less trapped in fear

JesusistheKing said: 

I do not think that I will be famous for it,  not at all  but I think that I could at least help heal myself from the grip of narcissistic attachments and behavior and maybe some other people

What would make you different from the currently available people offering that though? 

What do you have to offer that they do not?