what helps you to see life as a thing on beauty, Turncoat ? I want to see it as beautiful I really do I think that I have a lot of requirements on what qualifies at beautiful and this is what is preventing me from seeing life as beautiful and from enjoying it
what helps you to see life as a thing on beauty, Turncoat ?
Artistic appreciation, there is an art to everything, and otherwise recognizing the existence of complexity and variety for it's novelty.
Life is meant to be experienced, and following that scrutinized for every drop of appreciation in it.
I want to see it as beautiful I really do I think that I have a lot of requirements on what qualifies at beautiful and this is what is preventing me from seeing life as beautiful and from enjoying it
But life will be the same with or without those beliefs, can you not just appreciate a good piece of art or the taste of homecooked meal?
but I feel like if I settle for enjoying the simple things in life, that people will see me as simple and stupid and not really capable of anything great and fantastic and praiseworthy :/ should I really just............ accept that and be okay with it ? I need to choose, I need to make a decision if I am willing to give up people thinking that I am anything extraordinary and facing that I am really not is like not the easiest thing to do it feels kind of painful and humiliating and I am really struggling with it
I super need advice on this to be honest, I feel scared
like surrendering to a self-concept of being a person struggling with mental illness and "simple" is not sitting well with me rn and I am actually feeling very disturbed by it, but idk any more practical option rn that would keep me out of delsional-land but I feel so scared of what will happen if I surrender to this self-concept
but I feel like if I settle for enjoying the simple things in life, that people will see me as simple and stupid and not really capable of anything great and fantastic and praiseworthy :/
They already do, and appreciating life to it's depths is far from simple.
Really though like how is ART simple? You can literally spend all day focusing on anything, even just the bugs in your yard, for life has depths to everything that have further depths to that. The only reason one has to stop exploring is their own impatience, life will always provide something to do if you go out and look for it.
Following this it can become easier to turn Existential, appreciating the connections between everything.
should I really just............ accept that and be okay with it ? I need to choose, I need to make a decision if I am willing to give up people thinking that I am anything extraordinary and facing that I am really not is like not the easiest thing to do it feels kind of painful and humiliating and I am really struggling with it
I super need advice on this to be honest, I feel scared
like surrendering to a self-concept of being a person struggling with mental illness and "simple" is not sitting well with me rn and I am actually feeling very disturbed by it, but idk any more practical option rn that would keep me out of delsional-land but I feel so scared of what will happen if I surrender to this self-concept
Whether you do or don't accept this answer, it will follow you for the rest of your life. You might as well come to terms with it so that it doesn't keep surprising you.
If you continue to think there isn't even anything wrong with you then you will continue to be blindsighted by your own behavior.
but I feel like if I settle for enjoying the simple things in life, that people will see me as simple and stupid and not really capable of anything great and fantastic and praiseworthy :/
They already do, and appreciating life to it's depths is far from simple.
Really though like how is ART simple? You can literally spend all day focusing on anything, even just the bugs in your yard, for life has depths to everything that have further depths to that. The only reason one has to stop exploring is their own impatience, life will always provide something to do if you go out and look for it.
Following this it can become easier to turn Existential, appreciating the connections between everything.should I really just............ accept that and be okay with it ? I need to choose, I need to make a decision if I am willing to give up people thinking that I am anything extraordinary and facing that I am really not is like not the easiest thing to do it feels kind of painful and humiliating and I am really struggling with it
I super need advice on this to be honest, I feel scared
like surrendering to a self-concept of being a person struggling with mental illness and "simple" is not sitting well with me rn and I am actually feeling very disturbed by it, but idk any more practical option rn that would keep me out of delsional-land but I feel so scared of what will happen if I surrender to this self-concept
Whether you do or don't accept this answer, it will follow you for the rest of your life. You might as well come to terms with it so that it doesn't keep surprising you.
If you continue to think there isn't even anything wrong with you then you will continue to be blindsighted by your own behavior.
lol did you just say that people already do think of me as "simple and stupid and not really capable of anything great and fantastic and praiseworthy" ? I just want to clarify but it is okay if that is what you meant
but does it make me a "bad person" to be these things ? does it make me undeserving of love or basic human respect ? you can be honest about your opinion, I mean if I take on this self concept will I be persecuted more than I already have been ? I guess that is what I am scared of the most
