EVERY TIME I DO IT I FEEL GUILTY AND SHAMEFUL AND LIKE A SINNER BUT I AM A SAINT AND I SHOULD NOT BE FEELING THESE FEELINGS OVER RELAPSINF IN SUCH A HORRIBLE UNGODLY MANNER ANY LONGER I MYAT BE FREED FROM THIS HORRIBLE COMPULSION TO BE S**UALLY RAPED BY SATAN I FEEL LIKE I TEMPT HIM WHEN I SAY MOCKING STUFF ABOUT MICHAEL AND THAT IT IS PARTIALLY MY FAULT BECAUSE ONLY JESUS IS SUPPOSED TO JUDGE AND CONDEMN
I HAVE TO FREAKING STOP I CANNOT CONTINUE ALLOWING MYSELF TO BE S**UALLY VIOLATED BY GOD'S NEMESIS WHAT THE FREAKING HECK AM I DOING WITH MY LIFE THAT WAS THE LAST TIME !!!!!!!!!!!!