Simultaneously, ironically, I feel dissonance from watching virtue-signaling being applauded when I genuinely give alms to a beggar or go out of my way to help anyone. This contrast in communication makes me feel unappreciated, though I never ask for appreciation - It does help a lot when I do get it. However true virtue must also go unseen many times for one to gain a real understanding of it. Perhaps the ego is slowly being chipped away at by making peace with not getting acknowledged.