It’s kind of funny if think about it we are all just so untethered and walking around in the wild, left to our own devices. There is very little guidance or compass, or explanation left to us. I mean, we have what we have but, it is all optional or, uncertain whether we will take to it or adhere to the insights offered to us.
and then, from there, you know. We take life so seriously, but, do any of us reallt know what we are doing? Are any of us all perfectly self aware, and free from, mistakes, failure, or, being in the wrong in some way? Do we always do the most perfect thing, the most efficient thing, no.
Do all of us succeed? No. Do we all dream? Yes, I think most do- or did. Do we even know what the point of it all is? Not for certain. Do most care? No. Do we all find a genuine sense of purpose and belonging? No. Is that everyone’s prerogative in life? No.
Is anyone else going to do it for you? Or provide you emotional complacency? No. Can you find comfort in codependencies? Can you delude yourself? Can you lie to yourself and not even know you have? Yes.
People will judge you in life, and will these judgements always be accurate? No. None of us are capable of that kind of accuracy, it’s why we invented language. But even if you ask someone to show you who they really are- will they show you willingly? No, most likely not. Will it be the most authentic version of themselves? No most likely not.
People are multi-faceted in this way.
And then, will you even understand it or be able to comprehend it fully. When they show you. No, most likely not. Not without explanation, but even then, you really will never know what it’s like to be someone else, and what they experience, and All the reasons why they are the way they are.
Are most people good intentioned? Yes. Is it all about perspective? Sure.
We choose our perspectives. There’s many paths to take in life and many mindsets to hold to. There’s ways to control your mind. Will it ever be perfect? No.
But there is ways to find solace and peace in this world, and calm internal storms. There is medicine for your beguiled soul. There are ways to commit treason against yourself. There is hopelessness to be found if you believe in hopelessness. And all the things you fear most, these are the things that will control you most through out your entire life. It’s the things you fear so much, you never dare look in their direction, you repress the memory of their existence even, and delude yourself, they don’t exist- to carry on comfortably.
But the ways in which you carry on, the mechanisms you will require to keep that going, will be all consuming. And eventually become too much, too tiring, ineffective. You will run out of energy in your spirit, as fear consumes your life, and takes over all the things you do.
The spirit is more powerful than fear, but it is a tool to be reckoned with and requires, refinement. And as you let go of the things you hold onto, that you don’t really need- that you held onto because of fear. And, you let go of the things you once feared. And you forgive yourself. And you find compassion for yourself and the things you’ve done- and the things others have done.
You can begin to consult with the spirit that is no longer cast in shadow of fear and doubt and lives in puddles of endless sorrow, like tar. You can free yourself.
no one is forcing you to stay there except you. No one is forcing you to hold onto the things you hold onto. You are free. You don’t have to accept this for yourself any longer. If you cannot tolerate it anymore, then don’t.
Your spirit is likely begging you to and you should listen to it because it is trying to take you away from there. It intuitively knows what you need but the ways in which it shows you is similar to the autonomous nervous system, pain.
Pain is only the symptom of a problem.
It is important to pay attention to your own mind. My mind is telling me, I so badly want things to change.
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it is an assault to the human spirit to ignore pain, to not tend to your mind like a garden, it is benign neglect, and eventually it will grow out of control in every which direction, unpredictably so.
It sucks to sit with pain, But if you do not pay attention it will result in a sort of pain-inertia and will affect you more greatly than had you just paid attention in the first place.
Like in physics when you go down to go up. It’s a spring board effect. Pain amplifies itself when you suppress it.
But, on the other hand. This may be cornucopian optimist or maybe it is just blind hope. But I have noticed or observed there are, unusual phenomena when it comes to, rejuvenation, in nature, in man, in spirit, pertaining to health and wellness.
And the ways in which the human spirit and mind heals is often not so intuitive but almost backwards from what you expect. It is doing the opposite think or the least obvious thing, results in solving the problem the fastest.
And suddenly a very large ten step problem for example was solved, maybe in three steps. The solution to the problem is always much simpler and healing comes easier and faster than you expect it to.
I call this the principle of the Chinese finger trap.
And, things will surprise you, about nature and about man and in yourself, how you can 180. For example there is a plant discovered due to california wild fires, that botanists had no idea can rejuvenate itself post mortem aka, it can physically come back to life after being burned to a crisp. It’s a nice incentive, sure.
But this is phenomenal to me, and it is a property of this plant we did not know existed, until after it happened. Previously it was understood, after devastation to an ecosystem from wildfire, the time frame required to rejuvenate to the way it was is x amount of time. But, that time frame is now skewed or we were miscalculating all along and, insinuates the potential for a planet to revive itself is more profound than we had understood.
It can do things we don’t know how it does, but it just does. Meaning not all hope is lost, for barren wastelands. And, there is potential there for something to surprise you, always. It may be anomalous but, if it happened once, science can find a way to repeat it or the research of it can find it’s way to other applications.
We are discovering new things all the time. But, yeah.
So- back to the principle of the Chinese finger trap so. For example, it may seem like what you are up against is very difficult or impossible! And then, if you just relax a bit and stop struggling so much, and stop believing it is so hard- it is difficult to do this. But to ease into it, and embrace it rather than fighting it. It automatically releases you from it. Like unlocking doors or, almost like, cheating. It almost feels like cheating once you’ve figured it out.
It doesn’t have to be that hard. It just seems hard. But that is the illusion.
