'She's insane' is definitely the Occam's Razor here.
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You are literally pulling a Med right now.
No, it’s not for sex. We will be dating.
It's pulling a Med.
It’s securing my happiness at all costs. It’s okay because he actually likes me. Like seriously likes me and I love him, so that’s the difference.
You don't think Chapo liked you before you did him dirty like that?
He did, but he told me to kill myself and called me bad names. That’s not love. About was barely ever mean to me. He just called me mean and withheld my futurama.
ChallengeSeeker said:That’s what you’re not understanding. He also loves and cares for me. It’s just that I’m toxic, so he’s reluctant to date me again because he’s afraid I’ll leave him again and/or treat him poorly. I’m paying for a chance to show I’ve changed.I guess this becomes a question of faith. If he truly loves and cares for you. If you hurt him in the past, and he truly does love you but is reluctant. I just don't understand why the 1200 a month? I would think that you changing as a person or making a conscious effort would be signs of true change.
Regardless, I just doubt he actually loves and cares about you, and that you're just free income with a side of fuck if he wanted to do that. Maybe I'm wrong to question. You could just be deluding yourself into thinking he loves you as that's the only way you can be happy. All you can do is hope not, lest you enter another deep dark depression that you'll try to fill again, never whole until it reaches the ultimate point. If my words hold any weight, then perhaps you are just asking to suffer and suffer and suffer when the solution has been right in front of your face the whole time.
I'm not psychologist though, nor am I telling you what to do. Perhaps I'm entirely full of shit. Take it as you would.
I was with him in person. I saw how much he cares about me. I am the one who suggested the money thing. I wanted another chance. He gave me a free chance and I ruined it so I asked for a chance for money. He also said no to my money offer after I messed up again, which means he wasn’t just there for the money. If he was, he wouldn’t have cared that I messed up again.
The third time I messed up, I offered to raise the price and he finally agreed. It’s not about the money. He has a job and he loves his job. It’s part of his identity. I’m not deluding myself. I know he won’t hurt me on purpose because he’s just not like that. I know him. It’s about trust. I trust that he will do what is best for me and my child after a while. He wants what’s best for me already, which is why he put conditions on us being together that are all about me getting my life together. If it was just about money and sex, he wouldn’t care if I have my own place or if I stop drinking or if I have enough money to take care of my baby and give money to him. He’d just care about the money.
'She's insane' is definitely the Occam's Razor here.
That’s why I have to pay him. I’m insane. He knows it and is scared.
You are literally pulling a Med right now.
No, it’s not for sex. We will be dating.
It's pulling a Med.
It’s securing my happiness at all costs. It’s okay because he actually likes me. Like seriously likes me and I love him, so that’s the difference.
You don't think Chapo liked you before you did him dirty like that?
He did, but he told me to kill myself and called me bad names. That’s not love. About was barely ever mean to me. He just called me mean and withheld my futurama.
Love's both the good and the bad. If you only stick around for the good you will be alone.
Ę̵̚x̸͎̾i̴͚̽s̵̻͐t̷͐ͅe̷̯͠n̴̤̚t̵̻̅i̵͉̿a̴̮͊l̵͍̂ ̴̹̕D̵̤̀e̸͓͂t̵̢͂e̴͕̓c̸̗̄t̴̗̿ï̶̪v̷̲̍é̵͔
'She's insane' is definitely the Occam's Razor here.
That’s why I have to pay him. I’m insane. He knows it and is scared.
If you have to pay him, it's not love, it's a service.
Just like with Med.
Ę̵̚x̸͎̾i̴͚̽s̵̻͐t̷͐ͅe̷̯͠n̴̤̚t̵̻̅i̵͉̿a̴̮͊l̵͍̂ ̴̹̕D̵̤̀e̸͓͂t̵̢͂e̴͕̓c̸̗̄t̴̗̿ï̶̪v̷̲̍é̵͔
'She's insane' is definitely the Occam's Razor here.
That’s why I have to pay him. I’m insane. He knows it and is scared.
If you have to pay him, it's not love, it's a service.
Just like with Med.
I don’t have to pay him. I want to. He didn’t even demand it. I offered it and he took me up on that offer.
'She's insane' is definitely the Occam's Razor here.
That’s why I have to pay him. I’m insane. He knows it and is scared.
If you have to pay him, it's not love, it's a service.
Just like with Med.I don’t have to pay him. I want to. He didn’t even demand it. I offered it and he took me up on that offer.
Do you think he'd have said yes if you didn't offer money though?
Ę̵̚x̸͎̾i̴͚̽s̵̻͐t̷͐ͅe̷̯͠n̴̤̚t̵̻̅i̵͉̿a̴̮͊l̵͍̂ ̴̹̕D̵̤̀e̸͓͂t̵̢͂e̴͕̓c̸̗̄t̴̗̿ï̶̪v̷̲̍é̵͔
'She's insane' is definitely the Occam's Razor here.
That’s why I have to pay him. I’m insane. He knows it and is scared.
If you have to pay him, it's not love, it's a service.
Just like with Med.I don’t have to pay him. I want to. He didn’t even demand it. I offered it and he took me up on that offer.
Do you think he'd have said yes if you didn't offer money though?
Yes and no. I think he would have eventually, but I don’t think he would have at the same time because he wouldn’t think I was serious about him. So it’s complicated. I shouldn’t have brought money into it because that’s complicated things further, but I know where he stands. I know he loves me because I felt it when we were together. He’s tired of me hurting him, but he still loves me, which I appreciate. It’s almost like he understands how great I can be and wants me to be that way. I don’t know. It’s complicated.
He said I could have sex with someone and I chose About because he became my sex friend and I loved how it felt to be held and loved by him, so I decided I wanted to be with him. He wasn’t gong to be with me because I kept messing up by having sex when he said I wasn’t allowed to, and not agreeing to his terms and stuff, so I offered him money to be with me and he is going to get $1200 a month from me if I’m able to fix my life, so we can date.
You don’t even have that for your baby let alone to throw this at your own prostitute.
Stop dreaming, your “working” time is basically spent in CS all day long doing shitposts. Unless you are being paid for them, you are probably not doing shit.