Fill me up on it. I was busyyyy. She cheated or got drunk etc?
He said I could have sex with someone and I chose About because he became my sex friend and I loved how it felt to be held and loved by him, so I decided I wanted to be with him. He wasn’t gong to be with me because I kept messing up by having sex when he said I wasn’t allowed to, and not agreeing to his terms and stuff, so I offered him money to be with me and he is going to get $1200 a month from me if I’m able to fix my life, so we can date.
You are literally pulling a Med right now.
No, it’s not for sex. We will be dating.
You are literally pulling a Med right now.
No, it’s not for sex. We will be dating.
I just have a hard time imaging paying to date leads to any actual romance or real love. With sex I understand the concept of paying to fuck, although I personally would never engage in such "deals" because I have this aversion inside me towards auto-commodification. Is not the expression that money can't buy happiness? Will About genuinely love and care for you or will he just be essentially talking to you, and standing next to you?
I could never accept money from a person to date me, nor would I ever want to pay them because to me, that isn't natural, and real love.
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You are literally pulling a Med right now.
No, it’s not for sex. We will be dating.
I just have a hard time imaging paying to date leads to any actual romance or real love. With sex I understand the concept of paying to fuck, although I personally would never engage in such "deals" because I have this aversion inside me towards auto-commodification. Is not the expression that money can't buy happiness? Will About genuinely love and care for you or will he just be essentially talking to you, and standing next to you?
I could never accept money from a person to date me, nor would I ever want to pay them because to me, that isn't natural, and real love.
That’s what you’re not understanding. He also loves and cares for me. It’s just that I’m toxic, so he’s reluctant to date me again because he’s afraid I’ll leave him again and/or treat him poorly. I’m paying for a chance to show I’ve changed.
You are literally pulling a Med right now.
No, it’s not for sex. We will be dating.
It's pulling a Med.
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You are literally pulling a Med right now.
No, it’s not for sex. We will be dating.
It's pulling a Med.
It’s securing my happiness at all costs. It’s okay because he actually likes me. Like seriously likes me and I love him, so that’s the difference.
You are literally pulling a Med right now.
No, it’s not for sex. We will be dating.
It's pulling a Med.
It’s securing my happiness at all costs. It’s okay because he actually likes me. Like seriously likes me and I love him, so that’s the difference.
You don't think Chapo liked you before you did him dirty like that?
Ę̵̚x̸͎̾i̴͚̽s̵̻͐t̷͐ͅe̷̯͠n̴̤̚t̵̻̅i̵͉̿a̴̮͊l̵͍̂ ̴̹̕D̵̤̀e̸͓͂t̵̢͂e̴͕̓c̸̗̄t̴̗̿ï̶̪v̷̲̍é̵͔
ChallengeSeeker said:That’s what you’re not understanding. He also loves and cares for me. It’s just that I’m toxic, so he’s reluctant to date me again because he’s afraid I’ll leave him again and/or treat him poorly. I’m paying for a chance to show I’ve changed.
I guess this becomes a question of faith. If he truly loves and cares for you. If you hurt him in the past, and he truly does love you but is reluctant. I just don't understand why the 1200 a month? I would think that you changing as a person or making a conscious effort would be signs of true change.
Regardless, I just doubt he actually loves and cares about you, and that you're just free income with a side of fuck if he wanted to do that. Maybe I'm wrong to question. You could just be deluding yourself into thinking he loves you as that's the only way you can be happy. All you can do is hope not, lest you enter another deep dark depression that you'll try to fill again, never whole until it reaches the ultimate point. If my words hold any weight, then perhaps you are just asking to suffer and suffer and suffer when the solution has been right in front of your face the whole time.
I'm not psychologist though, nor am I telling you what to do. Perhaps I'm entirely full of shit. Take it as you would.