I honestly preferred your disenchanted dyke persona. <3
This was trying to be an insult but you don’t get it
My characters which were invented for therapeutic purposes to help me through a stressful time recovering from post traumatic stress- yes, you heard that right, I actually have PTSD. Don’t sit here and say I don’t, because you have no right to say that and you don’t know what I’ve been through okay.
But these characters were derived from parts of me but just amplified into individuals who embody those parts of self or those, moods, and view points, or thoughts.
They were a way for me to reflect on those thoughts from an external perspective, and to let out parts of myself that otherwise were suppressed.
Ive made a thread explaining a bit more about this, you probably missed it because you’re not on much, but. If you read that then you would understand why this comment.
These were creatively authored works of art, constructed emblems to represent raw parts of the human experience and make a commentary on societal issues relevant to the modern day experience of my generation as one who is immersed in it and experiencing it sees it.
To think that it’s a persona is completely missing the point so I just wanted to clarify what it is, and what it wasn’t.
I don’t expect everyone to understand, because I didn’t even understand it as I was doing it or why I was doing that. It took a while for it to really come to light to my own self that it was genuinely a coping mechanism.
A lot of people assume or judge a lot about me, but once again, I really would recommend treading lightly in this territory of judging and assuming stuff about others- because really, you just have no idea why people do what they do, or what their motivation and reason is. But if you were in their shoes you would understand.
Judging someone for their hobbies, is somewhat naive but understandable. That is just how our world works and humans work, and when you put yourself on the internet reality is you do open yourself up to that. Misunderstanding, judgement, assumptions, criticism, backlash.
But I just want to say, you don’t always know the full story, and why people do what they do, or who they really are. I’m not entitled to say, get to know me first. But, I will say, by being more open minded with people, you can open your world up to new connections and insight that can be very lasting and meaningful, and result in personal growth.
but by residing in a critical headspace, and exposing yourself to anger, you end up self sabotaging in a way, and creating a negative self confirmation bias in other people and in the world, which ultimately isolates you, and distorts your frame of view on the world and on people resulting in misery and further anger and frustration.
What you put out is what comes back to you, not in a literal boomerang sense, in externals, but in a very internal, intrinsic sense. And this intrinsic disposition affects your entire life going forward, each and everyday, and ultimately your entire future.
This isn’t hippie dippie manifesting shit either, it is confirmed with neuropsychological findings at the molecular level.
Hatred and disdain generates a psychological addiction to anger, which creates and demand for it, and then you fulfill it, to experience the release. This is why people are addicted to their own hatred, and their own anger sometimes. It’s really fascinating.
That being said it’s really slim that someone with this predisposition will respond differently than they began with, and you can predict how people will respond. Which is with more hatred and more anger.
But consciously you can break the cycle, and for your own good. Only if you understand the equation and how you are genuinely playing yourself will you be motivated likely to do so. But, it’s sort of like expecting to quit craving nicotine simply because you told them to. So, I know how it goes.
Most People will respond the same way they always have, indefinitely so, until the cycle is somehow disrupted.
