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Given that you've had psychotic experiences in the past (hallucinations and delusional/paranoid thinking), you'd be running the risk of inducing a psychotic break or schizophrenia by repeatedly taking hallucinogens. There isn't a "cure" for autism, but psychedelics are known to exacerbate latent psychosis.

From what I can tell in disorders and situations otherwise that have someone break from reality, one's sense of reinforced expectancy can be completely shattered for some once they see a different set of perceptions. By going through super basic repetitive routines a person can at points circumvent if not power through an episode by the merit of it being a routine, which is why we see disorders like Schizophrenia tend to showcase themselves once they leave home for college or to strike it out for themselves otherwise. With a psychedelic this can end up serving as that uncorking event, giving the impression that it was the drug's fault rather than it being contextually relevant. 

Throwing tons of unexpected stimulus at someone with a weak grasp on reality can sometimes be all it takes to not be able to come back from it quite right. It's our room to rationalize our experiences that otherwise serve as a debrief from these altered states of mind. A lot of why I have any structure at all is a matter of logical repetitions over how things must be. 

Speaking as someone who goes into episodes though, while I wouldn't advise this for other people I have myself used small doses of LSD to keep my behaviors under control. It forces the episode to the surface and surges it out during the course of the drug, making even a single tab experience feel like a much higher dose as the body unloads whatever the hell it's been becoming backed up with. 

The afterglow state is also pretty level, it's harder to get stressed and therefor reactive while the substance is in remission. That being said shrooms from my experiences have been almost entirely a dissociative, I mostly lose track of my sense of self-identity as things around me start to have less color while the ground seems a little wobblier. There's a euphoric stage towards the start very briefly sometimes but most of it tends to just be a very dry experience. 

Yeah, thinking on it more after I wrote that, microdosing itself doesn't seem particularly reality-shattering. She still should be cautious, but I think usually her episodes are stress-related, and start out light with red flags (i.e. seeing entities in mirrors, being afraid a lot).

 I don't struggle with that anymore

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If I can get rid of my autism I can understand br, and we can have a good relationship. I will be able to read his face, empathize with him more, and see things in him I hadn't been able to before

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Huh, I just looked up mushrooms and autism and I guess it's being pursued as an avenue of research. Just be careful, I guess.

 I will. I cannot live this way allister. My life is good in ways I have never even dreamed and I am still unhappy. I am lonely, if my autism is gone I can finally understand br. 

What differences do you notice while microdosing?

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Huh, I just looked up mushrooms and autism and I guess it's being pursued as an avenue of research. Just be careful, I guess.

 I will. I cannot live this way allister. My life is good in ways I have never even dreamed and I am still unhappy. I am lonely, if my autism is gone I can finally understand br. 

What differences do you notice while microdosing?

 I haven't microdosed yet, I got high on shrooms. I realized I am alone and don't understand people, but only my research. 

I realized a lot more than that actually. I cried for a while and then I was quiet fell asleep, and it was the first peaceful sleep I had in a long, long time. It felt like for the first time in my life, I was being hugged, but not in the usual annoying way, and I didn't feel alone.

I did realize, I finally realized though that I am actually incredibly intelligent, but also am afraid of my own intelligence. 

It was intelligence br pointed out but it made me upset, and I usually hide it on purpose. 

But despite that intelligence there is a wall between me and people and I need to break that wall

last edit on 12/17/2021 6:44:45 AM
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It felt like for the first time in my life, I was being hugged, but not in the usual annoying way, and I didn't feel alone.

I get that, usually around the temples and the sides of the jaw. The body clenches a lot and psychs can kind of numb that feeling for a sense of relief depending on how much they normally hold in. Repeated use of psychadelics have diminishing returns as a result of this; You've already cleansed the backup from your system and therefor have less to 'seek' while tripping the following times. For those who keep it to very occasional use they tend to report much more enjoyable times, even as someone who used to use it a lot and later on changed their rate of intake. 

It sounds like you didn't get to really do much while on it, you still technically don't know your entire reaction to it. Did you listen to any music or anything? 

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Suddenly reminded of this: 



I'll always advise this be done with a tripsitter when starting out even if they are tripping alongside you, like how it's handled in the video. They're a safety net. 

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last edit on 12/17/2021 7:09:08 AM
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0 votes RE: I am going to cure my autism

Suddenly reminded of this: 



I'll always advise this be done with a tripsitter when starting out, like how it's handled in the video. They're a safety net. 

 I have no irl friends who would do this

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I was eating food while I was doing this even though like no one does that, I had my favorite food I had money then, I had sushi and egg nog and cake and a piece of cheese it was very nice

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0 votes RE: I am going to cure my autism

Suddenly reminded of this: 



I'll always advise this be done with a tripsitter when starting out, like how it's handled in the video. They're a safety net. 

 I have no irl friends who would do this

You might find some among The Fandom. 

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FYI sushi I cheap here

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