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Lmfao I just realised why I love Christianity so much. No matter how much shit I pull, I can just always repeatedly ask for forgiveness and be forgiven, and then do it all over again. Lol.

I'm only now realising just how true it is.... I can not help myself. I really want to be good... You people probably think I'm joking. I'm not. I really want to be a good person and do good things. I don't give a shit about being loved. It's all about.... conforming to a value system which I respect. So ultimately, I don't respect myself?

I feel really bad. I think I just want someone to tell me I'm not a shitty person. I'm pretty down in the dumps and feel guilty for all the things I've done, to be honest, and that's why I'm writing this wall of crap here.

Despite being an asshole sometimes, rude and arrogant, and being friendly with Jim, at the end of the day I do what I perceive to make a person good, so I do believe so

edit: after reading chaotiks response, I can also be very cruel and an absolute zealot. But I always pick my targets, its never random. I do not think this is a bad thing.

tpp said: 

Lmfao I just realised why I love Christianity so much. No matter how much shit I pull, I can just always repeatedly ask for forgiveness and be forgiven, and then do it all over again. Lol.

 That’s not how Christianity works. God know your heart and that’s what matters when it comes to repentance. You can’t just ask for forgiveness. You isn’t to really want it and want to never do it again.

I’m a good person. I do good things and am nice to people. I love everyone.

I find myself more grey. I can be quite cruel and harsh to some, but for the most part I am just a flat neutral. I can be a dick to my friends in a banter sort of way where we all crack jokes at each other, and in that regard people see me as an asshole but they love me and we all laugh, there are times where I have made people cry though, mainly if its like where something happened and I'm feeling bitter and they're annoying me, then I'll lash out at them, like some girls in the past that were obsessed with me, I kind of got tired of it, and started acting aggressive towards them.

I think my dreams in life will paint me as a grey person, it just depends on if I act on my impulses and some of the intrusive fucked shit that I sometimes fantasize about or not. 

I think I could be terrible based on the thoughts I get towards people around me, even if those are just thoughts, and to the animal rights activist, they'd be upset that I tortured and killed mice and toads, but I only kill mice now if they're caught on a glue trap. 

My friends seem to view me as a morally good person, and some look up to me as a role model, so it's whatever. If I had an alignment of some dnd bullshit, I'd say maybe chaotic good, idfk it's kind of cringe to try to label as such. I haven't lived enough really to tell. 

While I might often be the better person, I wouldn't go as far as to call it 'good'. 

Generally yeah. There are definitely times that ai regret or feel guilty about stuff.

I am a not a good person. 

Psalm 143:2 Do not bring your servant into judgment, for no one living is righteous before you.

Ecclesiastes 7:20 Indeed, there is no one on earth who is righteous, no one who does what is right and never sins.

Romans 3:10-12 As it is written: “There is no one righteous, not even one; there is no one who understands; there is no one who seeks God. All have turned away, they have together become worthless; there is no one who does good, not even one.”

Romans 3:20 Therefore no one will be declared righteous in God’s sight by the works of the law; rather, through the law we become conscious of our sin. 

Isaiah 64:6 All of us have become like one who is unclean, and all our righteous acts are like filthy rags; we all shrivel up like a leaf, and like the wind our sins sweep us away.

Will add more~