You realize this was all for lulz, right?
Thrall to the Wire of Self-Excited Circuit.
When I never felt not even half of it in real life with the girls I've been. It's hilarious, the feeling felt so good in the dream, and yet I can't see myself feeling the same in real life. How can I even know how it feels like it in a dream, if I never actually felt it? Mindfuck.
Fear of love / avoidant attachment. You crave and thirst for love/closeness but you shut down your feelings in order to cope with the daily favela point blank executions. Your coping mechanisms are not active in your dreams though, hence the feelings.
I can relate to that lol. Is there anything I can do or at least exercise myself to slowly open up and be less tight shut. Just want to feel more loosen up to the point I can let someone just come inside and slide all the way in, deep into my life?
small steps. find someone empathic and non-judgemental to slowly open up to with baby steps. not savior complexed btw, avoid those. actually empathic and chill. i used to not be able to speak about my feelings because i denied them myself, thru a combination of EDMR therapy and my partner who is smth like a mommy to me atm I was able to make some progress.
FUCK OFF WITH THAT FAGGOT SHIT
I WAS TALKING ABOUT MY ANUS HOLE
I WANNA STRETCH THAT BAD BOY AND SUCK PLANET EARTH INTO MY VOID
dissociation with humor due to discomfort. you will get better with time with dealing with emotions though, good luck in your mental recovery.
consumed by avarice