a serious effort at escaping
I confessed this to Michael and Logan and them yesterday too I really just needed to get this off of my conscience because I have felt guilt and shame over it ever since I did it
You confess to Satanists?
yes, because I'm trying to break the energetic sexuak connection that Satan has me addicted to with them
I'd figure that messaging them about sexual stuff's just going to invite them back into your life.
yeah but now they know they can't go balls deep Irl I'm trying to turn them and Satan off, I've been doing everything repulsive I can think of lol I'm even getting fat again
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in case they are active pawns in Satan's game with me instead of passive like some of you probably think, I'm trying to ruin their fantasies about me (but it's true about my vagina I'm not just making it up)
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I used to be able to take even 11-12 inch cock up until that point, but now I can only take like 7 inches and it has been that way since towards the end of me being 22
Did you stop having sex/masturbating at that point or something?
From experience, the body's ability to take larger... uh, things, can become tighter and harder to pull off if the upkeep's not there.no I somehow pushed my cervix permanently down
Did this make all sex become more painful or something or can you just not ride that much size now?
he was a perfect fit, if he was bigger then he wouldn't have been able to go balls deep which is really pleasurable for men and I knew that so I think that's why I did it to myself, to have revenge in fuckbois who are usually well endowed
Oh, so it's about a sense of control then?
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a serious effort at escaping
It's not a serious effort if you're still messaging them imo.
I confessed this to Michael and Logan and them yesterday too I really just needed to get this off of my conscience because I have felt guilt and shame over it ever since I did it
You confess to Satanists?
yes, because I'm trying to break the energetic sexuak connection that Satan has me addicted to with them
I'd figure that messaging them about sexual stuff's just going to invite them back into your life.
yeah but now they know they can't go balls deep Irl I'm trying to turn them and Satan off, I've been doing everything repulsive I can think of lol I'm even getting fat again
Satan's into a lot of different stuff, while I'm not even sure at this point if women go to heaven Biblically speaking. Most of the passages go on about what a man would have to do to get there or screw it up, such as:
Deuteronomy 23:1 said:He that is wounded in the stones, or hath his privy member cut off, shall not enter into the congregation of the LORD.
A bastard shall not enter into the congregation of the LORD; even to his tenth generation shall he not enter into the congregation of the LORD.
An Ammonite or Moabite shall not enter into the congregation of the LORD; even to their tenth generation shall they not enter into the congregation of the LORD for ever:
...while it more goes on about what makes a woman good, not what sends a woman to heaven. Fundamentalist Baptists don't seem to think there'll be any women up there at all, and the texts arguably support the idea. God doesn't even want people with physical deformities to be his preachers, while Satan's been associated with both the sexiest and most vile among humankind.
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The Spirit of Jezebell layth deep in her core, as she cursed God's men "They are weak and Pathetic, therefore I will make shallow my vagina so the Son's of Adam cannot fully enter"
Then the Lord said. "They are not weak, they are meek"
The Lord then calculated the number of men, which was once 40, is now 4400.
Woe onto the white whore who maketh her vagina shallow to curse God's negroid men, and Colin, and Logan, and John and Allister.
did you know that Jesus referred to me, Lilith, as the Mother of Harlots in Revelation 17, and would have let the men in hollywood I was messing with kill me if I did not accept his forgiveness and repent?
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Revelation 17:3-14
3 So he carried me away in the spirit into the wilderness: and I saw a woman sit upon a scarlet coloured beast, full of names of blasphemy, having seven heads and ten horns.
4 And the woman was arrayed in purple and scarlet colour, and decked with gold and precious stones and pearls, having a golden cup in her hand full of abominations and filthiness of her fornication:
5 And upon her forehead was a name written, Mystery, Babylon The Great, The Mother Of Harlots And Abominations Of The Earth.
6 And I saw the woman drunken with the blood of the saints, and with the blood of the martyrs of Jesus: and when I saw her, I wondered with great admiration.
7 And the angel said unto me, Wherefore didst thou marvel? I will tell thee the mystery of the woman, and of the beast that carrieth her, which hath the seven heads and ten horns.
8 The beast that thou sawest was, and is not; and shall ascend out of the bottomless pit, and go into perdition: and they that dwell on the earth shall wonder, whose names were not written in the book of life from the foundation of the world, when they behold the beast that was, and is not, and yet is.
9 And here is the mind which hath wisdom. The seven heads are seven mountains, on which the woman sitteth.
10 And there are seven kings: five are fallen, and one is, and the other is not yet come; and when he cometh, he must continue a short space.
11 And the beast that was, and is not, even he is the eighth, and is of the seven, and goeth into perdition.
12 And the ten horns which thou sawest are ten kings, which have received no kingdom as yet; but receive power as kings one hour with the beast.
13 These have one mind, and shall give their power and strength unto the beast.
14 These shall make war with the Lamb, and the Lamb shall overcome them: for he is Lord of lords, and King of kings: and they that are with him are called, and chosen, and faithful.
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