I have this issue, where I feel stuck in 2 modes. I'm either excited and focused, with ideas flying at me at all different directions. It's nice. When I'm alone I can kind of swim comfortably in this headspace, but when others enter the picture it's a different story.
I certainly can have a lot of energy around others and be productive in a conversation, but the second somebody says anything that I don't like, all this excited happy idea driven energy gives way to a silent, simmering agitation which can subsequently last for hours. It's like once I'm put in a negative mood I just can't get out of it.
It's like there's this kinetic raw energy in my head and that energy conserves with the mood swing. If it isn't all these ideas I'm so excited to talk about, it's this feeling of being on edge, ready to confront anybody, and just feeling like shit. Sometimes this lasts so long that I actually have to go to bed and sleep before I can get out of it.
Anybody else have this experience?
This could be signs of bi-polar disorder. Has this been a lifelong experience?
