stop doing drugs, then you might have one "mode"
aizen=liyang confirmed
I have this issue, where I feel stuck in 2 modes. I'm either excited and focused, with ideas flying at me at all different directions. It's nice. When I'm alone I can kind of swim comfortably in this headspace, but when others enter the picture it's a different story.
I certainly can have a lot of energy around others and be productive in a conversation, but the second somebody says anything that I don't like, all this excited happy idea driven energy gives way to a silent, simmering agitation which can subsequently last for hours. It's like once I'm put in a negative mood I just can't get out of it.
It's like there's this kinetic raw energy in my head and that energy conserves with the mood swing. If it isn't all these ideas I'm so excited to talk about, it's this feeling of being on edge, ready to confront anybody, and just feeling like shit. Sometimes this lasts so long that I actually have to go to bed and sleep before I can get out of it.
Anybody else have this experience?
You did say once you were on the spectrum.
You are showing signs of limited range of emotion, from euphoria and happiness with flowing ideas to jumping to blatant long-lasting hours of anger due to something perceived as negative or an offense towards you. Someone neuro would first try to analyze all the info that was thrown at them, try to understand why was it said or if there was any truth or fact to it, they could discord, agree or partially agree and then think a bit more about it and let it go.
What I can recommend you to do is that when you hear something you dislike and you feel you will get into this wave of negativity and anger, first of all remember that you are on the Spectrum so the frustration you are feeling is false and is your brain playing tricks on you. The info you processed has actually no value or any what truth to it, they usually don't to anyone, that's why it's called offense. Instead of meditate on this last longing anger, use that loop to think again on how it's your brain trying to trick you due to how it has been wired, and slowly realize that it's nothing and let it go and move on to something else. Remember, you are not truly anger, it's your brain trained to function like it has been wired to do.
Next time that problem happens to you, try that, and let me now how it worked out for you.
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Take downers with your uppers to balance it out. Trust me this is how real G's stay on top of their game.
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What do you usually do to try to shake off the bad funk?
Isolating myself from all other people, diving into one of my interests... writing (like I am now), baroque music (listening to angry music just makes it worse). Intellectual exercises of my cognition can help a lot.
you've been to therapy right? those sound like sensible solutions
naw hes just intelligent
in that case i think therapy would work wonders for him
I have this issue, where I feel stuck in 2 modes. I'm either excited and focused, with ideas flying at me at all different directions. It's nice. When I'm alone I can kind of swim comfortably in this headspace, but when others enter the picture it's a different story.
I certainly can have a lot of energy around others and be productive in a conversation, but the second somebody says anything that I don't like, all this excited happy idea driven energy gives way to a silent, simmering agitation which can subsequently last for hours. It's like once I'm put in a negative mood I just can't get out of it.
It's like there's this kinetic raw energy in my head and that energy conserves with the mood swing. If it isn't all these ideas I'm so excited to talk about, it's this feeling of being on edge, ready to confront anybody, and just feeling like shit. Sometimes this lasts so long that I actually have to go to bed and sleep before I can get out of it.
Anybody else have this experience?
You did say once you were on the spectrum.
You are showing signs of limited range of emotion, from euphoria and happiness with flowing ideas to jumping to blatant long-lasting hours of anger due to something perceived as negative or an offense towards you. Someone neuro would first try to analyze all the info that was thrown at them, try to understand why was it said or if there was any truth or fact to it, they could discord, agree or partially agree and then think a bit more about it and let it go.
What I can recommend you to do is that when you hear something you dislike and you feel you will get into this wave of negativity and anger, first of all remember that you are on the Spectrum so the frustration you are feeling is false and is your brain playing tricks on you. The info you processed has actually no value or any what truth to it, they usually don't to anyone, that's why it's called offense. Instead of meditate on this last longing anger, use that loop to think again on how it's your brain trying to trick you due to how it has been wired, and slowly realize that it's nothing and let it go and move on to something else. Remember, you are not truly anger, it's your brain trained to function like it has been wired to do.
Next time that problem happens to you, try that, and let me now how it worked out for you.
It has been suggested to me by multiple people that I'm intolerant of criticism... I'm not really sure why I stay in a negative state for so long. It's almost uncontrollable, as even mental exercises to not feel that way usually don't work. The best method is persistent distraction from the negative stimuli and doing something I like until it just goes away on its own.
Another thing is, it isn't really just a feature of me on stimulants. When I go for a long time without taking them and then take them again it can exacerbate this issue for a few weeks, but they aren't the cause because I have this experience regardless.
Might be a chemical thing, going from a kind of euphoric flight of ideas to persistent agitation. I read that's symptomatic of mania, but I've yet to experience the kind of crippling depression necessary to indicate a mood disorder. Unipolar hypomania? But then this doesn't come in episodes, it's just usually how I am.
My grandiose delusions are better than yours.
a bluelight.org conversation:
topic: poly drug needs to be talked about
“As someone who has mixed drugs of all types for a long time, it is a fatal mistake. You can try to balance yourself out with uppers and downers but it doesn?t take long before your stuck taking drugs to get up and get down and you feel worse than being sober. I went in a decade ago looking for a cure, and came out cursed.” -Legally High
source: https://www.bluelight.org/xf/threads/poly-drug-needs-to-be-talked-about.819726/page-2#post-14412979
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