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FEAR! FEAR! FEAR! FEAR! FEAR! FEAR!
I appreciate you are airing out your thoughts and probably not interested in a response.
But try and use this to release these feelings of self-persecution. There is no value in being a martyr in your own head, or even elsewhere, almost all of the time. If there is anyone who should be forgiving and understanding of you, it's yourself. You will just end up making yourself your own enemy, and that's something you can only win by surrendering.
There are more constructive ways of self-talk. Build up instead of hammer down.
I'm just trying to be honest with myself. if I tried to tell myself nice things it wouldn't feel real, I dont want to be delusional I guess.
Also, I appreciate your tips
Your my friend and your not a loser so I take what you say into consideration
but there is. this is why it bothered me