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In conclusion, I do not have Narcissistic Personality Disorder.


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Recently, I've flirted with the idea. But, I've researched narcissism extensively at this point and found that the only thing I really have in commom with them is grandiosity coupled with a short temper. But, perhaps it is not even grandiosity- narcissists often source their ego from absolutely nothing, it's a false self. But I have felt a relative constancy in myself since early childhood, and for the most part did not live a particularly hard one.

I also do not source my ego from nothing:

I have one because I have thoughts that I never see repeated anywhere else, because I notice so much more than most people in my surroundings, because I am very productive and inherantly grasp concepts (such as mathematics) that some people need a long time to understand, because I am good at exhibiting my thoughts, and because I have faith that with these pros of myself I am at least capable of doing something awesome with them and intend to try to once the big idea hits me (I have a list of potentials but I am still in search of "the one".

I have a lot of energy, stimulants or not and I'm basically perpetually restless. Some people think I ought to drink or smoke to calm down but I see not advantage in it, as my best thoughts come in that mindstate and so also, I pride myself in my aptitude to experience all sensations of life so vividly, the good and the bad, and still carry on by making the best of things and focusing so intensely on my interests that I can get contentment from then alone.

I don't particularly care about socialization but I am capable of love and caring about people. I despise the concept of needing happiness and validation from othera (aka SUPPLY) and do not view such a pointless and fleeting source of happiness as sustainable. Thus, I tend to select a small number of "special individuals" to talk to regularly and show them upmost loyalty (such as with me and delora). I do not intend to discard and they are not my supply. They are human beings that I enjoy collaborating with and have no desire to senselessly stop it because I actually do care about them.

My supply is mechanical and systematic. A lot of things can be supply that are much more sensical. The pursuit of my academic ambitions is supply, logical puzzles and challenges are supply, problems to solve are supply, certain video games (like that new game Sekiro) are supply. 80s music is supply. Synthwave is supply. Typing my posts here is also supply because it is interesting to see people so vastly different from me respond to my ideas and gives room for further pondering, and furthermore developing my own philosophies is supply and therefore, my own brain is my greatest source of supply, and all is supply is independent from other people. Narcissists suffer from the inconvienence to themselves and others of needing others' admiration for supply. I do not demand such admiration, only loyalty and good, high quality conversations.

 

And that, is why I am not a narcissist.

My grandiose delusions are better than yours.
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Bo you are textbook NPD and this post only further solidifies that fact. Your ego is absolutely sourced from nothing but you see yourself a king. You are not exceptional in any way. The only rhing "special" about you is when people say "special" to make autistic kids feel better about themselves. You seem to have internalized this and think you are actually special when the reality is that you are mediocre and arrogant.

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Just learn some basic communication skills and you should be able to bridge the gap between your "intelligence" and their natural abilities. 

Instead of giving up on it entirely because "they are the problem", there's literally guides on how to socialize, recognize emotional cues, everything someone with issues in those areas could use in a studied sense to compensate. 

Seriously, the biggest glaring symptom here is self-alienation through an unwillingness to learn how to speak towards another's mind, instead insisting that people around you go the extra mile of understanding your "intelligence". The unwillingness is the only actual problem here. 

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last edit on 4/16/2019 6:25:19 PM
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Seriously, the biggest glaring symptom here is self-alienation through an unwillingness to learn how to speak towards another's mind, instead insisting that people around you go the extra mile of understanding your "intelligence". The unwillingness is the only actual problem here. 

 This, or sometimes people (especially here) love to gang up to bully someone.

I just want other people to read this shit and be confused whether it's part of the post or not.
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Edvard said: 


Seriously, the biggest glaring symptom here is self-alienation through an unwillingness to learn how to speak towards another's mind, instead insisting that people around you go the extra mile of understanding your "intelligence". The unwillingness is the only actual problem here. 

 This, or sometimes people (especially here) love to gang up to bully someone.

He gave a giant narrative about how he has the equivalent of communication issues, but he spends all his time making it entirely about the other people after miles of inflating his own accomplishments to justify how he's not the problem (Reverse Ad Hominem?).

"When it's everyone else's problem, it's usually your own" is pretty universal. 

In reference to the topic: "I Have No Desire For A Social Group"

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last edit on 4/16/2019 6:56:29 PM
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"When it's everyone else's problem, it's usually your own" is pretty universal. 


You often tend to say "everyone" when it's not, though. Just a gang of people does not mean everyone.

I know because you used to have the narrative that "everyone" was against me at some point. It was manipulative and it eventually turned against you.

I just want other people to read this shit and be confused whether it's part of the post or not.
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Edvard said: 


"When it's everyone else's problem, it's usually your own" is pretty universal. 


You often tend to say "everyone" when it's not, though. Just a gang of people does not mean everyone.

Read his story for yourself and come back. 

How are we supposed to discuss any of the material if you won't even do the homework? 

I know because you used to have the narrative that "everyone" was against me at some point. It was manipulative and it eventually turned against you.

Are you're projecting onto Bo?

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Edvard said: 


"When it's everyone else's problem, it's usually your own" is pretty universal. 


You often tend to say "everyone" when it's not, though. Just a gang of people does not mean everyone.

Read his story for yourself and come back. 

How are we supposed to discuss any of the material if you won't even do the homework? 

I did read. I even replied to that thread.

I know because you used to have the narrative that "everyone" was against me at some point. It was manipulative and it eventually turned against you.

Are you're projecting onto Bo?

 I'm not pointing out the similarities between me and BO, I am saying you're resembling yourself.

I just want other people to read this shit and be confused whether it's part of the post or not.
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So you're ignoring the point on purpose as an excuse for a jab? 

Way to derail the topic Ed. 

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last edit on 4/16/2019 7:04:10 PM
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Palepeach-

This is blatant hating on me, I am not even rude to you until you make comments like this. Nothing you say is ever good, honestly just an asshole who hates my mentality because they will never have enough natural talent to even justifiably share it.

Turncoat-

You misunderstand see, I do not give a shit if or if not I struggle with communication. Most people are inconsequential, if you are not a VERY CLOSE FRIEND then your opinion on me is worthless. I act the way I want and consequently only the best people want to be my friend. I weed out the fools.

Edvard-

Yeah, and to be honest even I was memeing on you but unlike the others it was not based on hate, but my own personal amusement.

My grandiose delusions are better than yours.
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