C4 will rock your world. All the women in the world fall for him. Unattainable beast, even the likes of CS can not reach him, despite their luscious, charismatic fuck-charisma. The girl will be lucky to bear his children after their mating ritual. How jealous you all are.
i have become the person i dreamed of being
When your kindergarten teacher asked everybody what they wanted to be when they grew up, you said you wanted to be an insecure fuckboy?
I have a job, a car, the body I want, a degree in the works, money to spend on myself, and multiple hot girls on the go.
That's all you need?
Add a roof over my head to that and some time to pursue hobbies, and yeh that's me at a high level of life satisfaction.
QuietBeef said:Is the point of all the things you've created and acquired for yourself not ultimately your mental wellbeing?Ultimately yes I suppose, but I figure I can unfuck myself mentally when I have more time in the future. Clocks ticking for a lot of the other things and I have a lot of catching up to do. Like a performer at a circus, I'm on a unicycle trying to keep my balance while I'm juggling these things
That's quite an assumption. What makes you think that mental damage can simply be undone at your convenience?
QuietBeef said:You are not your job, You are not your car. You are not a degree, or money, and you're definitely not a hot girl. These are accessories, tools. Defining yourself by them simply means you don't know who you are or want to be.I think you're running away with that a little. You're suggesting I define myself in totality by any single one of those things, but I define myself as a compilation of all the things I do, have done, and aspire to be. When I was younger I created a long list of things I wanted to achieve for myself and detailed how I wanted my life to be. I still desire these things and so I steadily work my way through it.
Whether you define yourself by one or all doesn't matter. It's just stuff. You're taking a very superficial idea of what a person is meant to "be", and trying to force yourself into that mold, as if that will make you as smiley as the nice folk on TV who made you think you wanted it. Sure, these things are useful. It's certainly not wrong to aspire to them. And one can take pride in the hard work required to gain them. But if things are your answer to who you are or want to be, I think you're severely neglecting yourself.
i have become the person i dreamed of being
When your kindergarten teacher asked everybody what they wanted to be when they grew up, you said you wanted to be an insecure fuckboy?
I have a job, a car, the body I want, a degree in the works, money to spend on myself, and multiple hot girls on the go.
That's all you need?
Add a roof over my head to that and some time to pursue hobbies, and yeh that's me at a high level of life satisfaction.
You'd describe yourself as highly satisfied, at present? : P
Add a roof over my head to that and some time to pursue hobbies, and yeh that's me at a high level of life satisfaction.Did your parents not teach you that it's rude to ignore others?
Apologies my dude not meaning to ignore you, I just don't understand what you're getting at
QuietBeef said:Is the point of all the things you've created and acquired for yourself not ultimately your mental wellbeing?Ultimately yes I suppose, but I figure I can unfuck myself mentally when I have more time in the future. Clocks ticking for a lot of the other things and I have a lot of catching up to do. Like a performer at a circus, I'm on a unicycle trying to keep my balance while I'm juggling these things
That's quite an assumption. What makes you think that mental damage can simply be undone at your convenience?
I've been in a far darker mindset and managed to restore myself to somewhat normal. So, blind hope that I can do it again
I think you're running away with that a little. You're suggesting I define myself in totality by any single one of those things, but I define myself as a compilation of all the things I do, have done, and aspire to be. When I was younger I created a long list of things I wanted to achieve for myself and detailed how I wanted my life to be. I still desire these things and so I steadily work my way through it.
Whether you define yourself by one or all doesn't matter. It's just stuff. You're taking a very superficial idea of what a person is meant to "be", and trying to force yourself into that mold, as if that will make you as smiley as the nice folk on TV who made you think you wanted it. Sure, these things are useful. It's certainly not wrong to aspire to them. And one can take pride in the hard work required to gain them. But if things are your answer to who you are or want to be, I think you're severely neglecting yourself.
I think it boils down to the question of what else am I supposed to be doing, if not this? I can't practically see any other use of my time alive than pursuing these things right now, as I have no idea what would make me happy so I can't work towards it
QuietBeef said:You'd describe yourself as highly satisfied, at present? : P
This is where the disparity lies. I am highly satisfied in how these goals have been objectively achieved, but I am also incredibly unsatisfied with some unknown variable. Perhaps it's the dissilusionment that despite fulfilling my goals, I feel no less empty than when I started, and that I've lost myself along the way
QuietBeef said:Is the point of all the things you've created and acquired for yourself not ultimately your mental wellbeing?Ultimately yes I suppose, but I figure I can unfuck myself mentally when I have more time in the future. Clocks ticking for a lot of the other things and I have a lot of catching up to do. Like a performer at a circus, I'm on a unicycle trying to keep my balance while I'm juggling these things
That's quite an assumption. What makes you think that mental damage can simply be undone at your convenience?
I've been in a far darker mindset and managed to restore myself to somewhat normal. So, blind hope that I can do it again
How did you restore yourself to normal?
I think you're running away with that a little. You're suggesting I define myself in totality by any single one of those things, but I define myself as a compilation of all the things I do, have done, and aspire to be. When I was younger I created a long list of things I wanted to achieve for myself and detailed how I wanted my life to be. I still desire these things and so I steadily work my way through it.
Whether you define yourself by one or all doesn't matter. It's just stuff. You're taking a very superficial idea of what a person is meant to "be", and trying to force yourself into that mold, as if that will make you as smiley as the nice folk on TV who made you think you wanted it. Sure, these things are useful. It's certainly not wrong to aspire to them. And one can take pride in the hard work required to gain them. But if things are your answer to who you are or want to be, I think you're severely neglecting yourself.
I think it boils down to the question of what else am I supposed to be doing, if not this? I can't practically see any other use of my time alive than pursuing these things right now, as I have no idea what would make me happy so I can't work towards it
Then it seems like your next step is pretty clear. Exploration.
QuietBeef said:You'd describe yourself as highly satisfied, at present? : PThis is where the disparity lies. I am highly satisfied in how these goals have been objectively achieved, but I am also incredibly unsatisfied with some unknown variable. Perhaps it's the dissilusionment that despite fulfilling my goals, I feel no less empty than when I started, and that I've lost myself along the way
It sounds like you already know that these things can't substitute a real sense of self and a genuine satisfaction in that. And what's more, since you actually achieved these things, you now know that isn't the answer, and are free to focus your energies in a new direction without being hindered by the illusion of their rewards. You seem like someone who appreciates efficiency. If you really want to be efficient, accept what doesn't work and keep moving. It's not like a car and a nice pair of tits are the end of the line in life. : P
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