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c4 said: 

Turncoat said: 

c4 said: 

as a side note i feel increasingly detached from reality and my sense of self

Who's reality and self do you find yourself attaching to? 

 i'm not quite sure. no one in particular just not my own, sounds a bit weird but i feel like im not really at the wheel

i've felt the same since i broke up with ex, i don't know why im doing any of this, i think its dissicociation

Sounds more like running away from your feelings from the sounds of your OPs lately. The only reason you can't see yourself is over how much you don't recognize your behaviors when compared to the construct self you believe yourself to be, the contradictions are screwing with you. 

Stop running and you'll figure out why you're doing this, keep running and it'll self-perpetuate. You aren't out of control, you're just spending all that energy on damage control versus your own perceptions of yourself. 

Learn that how you're behaving now is just as you as you are when you're doing otherwise and from there the introspection can kick in. 

c4 said: 

 i have become the person i dreamed of being

When your kindergarten teacher asked everybody what they wanted to be when they grew up, you said you wanted to be an insecure fuckboy?

Turncoat said: 

c4 said: 

Turncoat said: 

c4 said: 

as a side note i feel increasingly detached from reality and my sense of self

Who's reality and self do you find yourself attaching to? 

 i'm not quite sure. no one in particular just not my own, sounds a bit weird but i feel like im not really at the wheel

i've felt the same since i broke up with ex, i don't know why im doing any of this, i think its dissicociation

Sounds more like running away from your feelings from the sounds of your OPs lately. The only reason you can't see yourself is over how much you don't recognize your behaviors when compared to the construct self you believe yourself to be, the contradictions are screwing with you. 

Stop running and you'll figure out why you're doing this, keep running and it'll self-perpetuate. You aren't out of control, you're just spending all that energy on damage control versus your own perceptions of yourself. 

Learn that how you're behaving now is just as you as you are when you're doing otherwise and from there the introspection can kick in. 

Big old self destructive phase. Having an audience here I can be truthful with maybe encourages me too, as I've often felt I have to hide myself from people IRL

This feels very accurate. I'm drawn towards the option of further running away from feelings and diving headfirst into whatever compulsions arise. I guess I view my mental wellbeing as expendable right now

QuietBeef said: 

c4 said: 

 i have become the person i dreamed of being

When your kindergarten teacher asked everybody what they wanted to be when they grew up, you said you wanted to be an insecure fuckboy?

I'm the person I dreamed of from around ages 16-22. I have a job, a car, the body I want, a degree in the works, money to spend on myself, and multiple hot girls on the go. This transformation greatly upsets people

c4 said: 

aight so confirmed she coming to see me on sunday and staying the night

this bitch better put out cus i have waited 3 fuckin years

THREE YEARS I HAVE PATIENTLY WAITED TO EJACULATE INTO HER

*Gorilla sounds*

c4 said: 

Turncoat said: 

c4 said: 

Turncoat said: 

c4 said: 

as a side note i feel increasingly detached from reality and my sense of self

Who's reality and self do you find yourself attaching to? 

 i'm not quite sure. no one in particular just not my own, sounds a bit weird but i feel like im not really at the wheel

i've felt the same since i broke up with ex, i don't know why im doing any of this, i think its dissicociation

Sounds more like running away from your feelings from the sounds of your OPs lately. The only reason you can't see yourself is over how much you don't recognize your behaviors when compared to the construct self you believe yourself to be, the contradictions are screwing with you. 

Stop running and you'll figure out why you're doing this, keep running and it'll self-perpetuate. You aren't out of control, you're just spending all that energy on damage control versus your own perceptions of yourself. 

Learn that how you're behaving now is just as you as you are when you're doing otherwise and from there the introspection can kick in. 

Big old self destructive phase. Having an audience here I can be truthful with maybe encourages me too, as I've often felt I have to hide myself from people IRL

This feels very accurate. I'm drawn towards the option of further running away from feelings and diving headfirst into whatever compulsions arise. I guess I view my mental wellbeing as expendable right now

Is the point of all the things you've created and acquired for yourself not ultimately your mental wellbeing?

QuietBeef said: 

c4 said: 

 i have become the person i dreamed of being

When your kindergarten teacher asked everybody what they wanted to be when they grew up, you said you wanted to be an insecure fuckboy?

I'm the person I dreamed of from around ages 16-22. I have a job, a car, the body I want, a degree in the works, money to spend on myself, and multiple hot girls on the go.

You are not your job,  You are not your car.  You are not a degree, or money, and you're definitely not a hot girl.  These are accessories, tools.  Defining yourself by them simply means you don't know who you are or want to be.

This transformation greatly upsets people

 What people?

I want to be a real human boy. I am jealous of you c4, you are like a super-boy.

Teach me how to be a real boy.

What people?

Who now?

QuietBeef said:

Is the point of all the things you've created and acquired for yourself not ultimately your mental wellbeing?

Ultimately yes I suppose, but I figure I can unfuck myself mentally when I have more time in the future. Clocks ticking for a lot of the other things and I have a lot of catching up to do. Like a performer at a circus, I'm on a unicycle trying to keep my balance while I'm juggling these things

QuietBeef said:

You are not your job, You are not your car. You are not a degree, or money, and you're definitely not a hot girl. These are accessories, tools. Defining yourself by them simply means you don't know who you are or want to be.

I think you're running away with that a little. You're suggesting I define myself in totality by any single one of those things, but I define myself as a compilation of all the things I do, have done, and aspire to be. When I was younger I created a long list of things I wanted to achieve for myself and detailed how I wanted my life to be. I still desire these things and so I steadily work my way through it.

c4 said: 

QuietBeef said: 

c4 said: 

 i have become the person i dreamed of being

When your kindergarten teacher asked everybody what they wanted to be when they grew up, you said you wanted to be an insecure fuckboy?

I have a job, a car, the body I want, a degree in the works, money to spend on myself, and multiple hot girls on the go. 

That's all you need?