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Tomboys can be hot blanc, you could totally go for that 

Xadem said: 

Tomboys can be hot blanc, you could totally go for that 

Seconded. 

At least you're caught up on makeup videos.

Smh.

You have a vagina. Thats it. You did it.

Just act natural.

Cain said: 

Just act natural.

You see, when I do this I end up behaving more femininely. In her case, acting naturally is what “stunted” (for lack of a better word) this development. 

Also, a lot of things that women are into are unnatural too, like makeup, hairstyling, yoga pants, and necklaces in Blanc’s case, so it takes some familiarity with it instead of just instinctual understanding to pull off enough times to eventually train and streamline it. 

when I try to act natural my spincter relaxes and yesterday's lasagna comes pouring out 

that's why I wear a sociopath mask around people these days  no more waterfalls

Blanc said: 

So I've always been clueless about how to be a girl. 

 

It started when I was really young and all my friends conspired together to come to school wearing their new bras. (lol elementary school). And so of course me being a ding bat, I completely forgot about it. And they're like lifting up their shirts and showing each other their bras and touching them and they're like WHERE IS YOURS???? 

And then they started this game going around on the playground labeling everyone, and they labelled me a tomboy. 

And I'm like lol what's that 

And they were like "you're like a boy" 

And I was like 

I am confusion. I am a girl that's like a boy... hm... I will think about this... and get back to you in 7-10 business days.  

 

And the truth is, I never really figured out my identity. So as I got older I went with androgynous, because I don't genuinely care whether you call me a boy or a girl, or an it, or an alien. And the concept of gender is a fucking enigma to me. 

 

The reason I struggled with the concept of my own gender identity is partially due to the fact when I was around other girls, I didn't see myself as the same as them. At all. I stuck out like a sore thumb in every possible way- from what I liked to do, to how I liked to dress. 

 

The things that came to girls naturally, or that they learned from their mothers, didn't and still don't come as naturally to me. 

 

But I wanted to learn so I made efforts sometimes. I was 20 something years old getting ready in the mirror with my girlfriend at the time to go out to a show. And I picked up her straightener and started flattening my hair for fun. And my girlfriend was like, 'what are you doing??" and im like "straightening my hair what do u mean" and she's like "that's not how you do it XD" and she had to show me. 

 

I still don't see how what I was doing and what she was doing was any different but *shrugs* the point is, I'm a bit clueless. There's countless examples of me just being, retarded when comes to "being a girl"

 

And now I'm older, I've started becoming far less depressed because of getting mental help lol. It's helped me to enjoy things more that I couldn't enjoy before because I was too depressed to even notice they were enjoyable. 

 

So as you all know I started to get into makeup. This has led me down a vein of,  yoga pants, Cartier/Tiffany jewelry, Starbucks, white iPhones, and Ariana grande. For starters. Started getting my nails done, and doing my eyebrows. 

 

A lot of things I'm doing for the first time. Like the other day I got my hair done. For the first time in six years. And the only reason it wasn't longer, is because when I was in Mexico I got my dreads taken out professionally. Dreads. lol 

 

Yesterday I bought a necklace and I struggled to put it on, only to remember I saw a girl in a youtube video turn it around, look in a mirror and put it on backwards first. So I followed suit and it worked. 

 

If it weren't for girls on youtube, I would be hopeless. But like I aforementioned because of them I was introduced to a lot of things. Like, yoga pants. So, yesterday. 

 

I wandered into a store called "Lululemon" and bought my first pair of Lululemon yoga pants... and a sports bra. 

 

And I'm starting to see what the hype is all about. I have to say, these make you look good. And they're kind of space age-y which I live for. I love anything that makes me feel like I'm in the future. 

 

I actually was in a film called Enders Game as an extra (the coolest experience of my life) and they had us wear space costumes obviously, and they remind me a lot of that outfit I had to wear day in and day out. It's even the same material. I really love it. 

 

I made this post to talk about Lululemon leggings. 

 

Everyone, this is a PSA... you should get some. 

 You are the a girl. You talk about irrelevant and annoying stuff like makeup and shopping. You wear makeup and try to look pretty. The only thing that makes you not a girl is the way your face is shaped. You just look like a guy. You don't act like one. Guys are more entertaining and they don't talk about makeup and dumb crap like that. I think all you need to do is get skinny and put on a nice dress and you will be a super girly girl.