I should mention these are hypothetical. I have never actually done any violence in a relationship, removed anyone, or tried a double suicide. It’s more like when I see it in movies and shows I support it. I overhyped my capabilities. But fiction and reality are very different. I have too much acceptance.
It all comes down to wanting to be chosen super vehemently. Why is the guy in dating now for a week not begging for me? I wish he would because I can’t even feel any love. I feel nothing anymore if I’m not their everything. Why is he not more possessive? Almost died when he said he’d forgive me if I ever cheated (I won’t). Well also I might get birth control soon.
And I respect peoples agency and boundaries immensely. Even the ones they don’t even know they have yet (if I know first). Say no, walk away, don’t diminish feelings even to me. But some people can’t communicate what they want or how much it matters to them. I’m not psychic.
From what I've gathered, over time there are things about you that actually make me nervous Feathers.
Not saying me in particular but I do think for a guy to be in a relationship with you wouldn't be an average relationship, he will have to undergo strict regulations.
Your expectations of what your guy must be and who you'll get are 2 different things. I don't think you'll have to worry about much if you accept a decent guy with less demands. I say that cause you did complain one time about that long distance relationship you were in where the guy never had the decency to buy you a car.
You’re right I basically want a man who worships me. Otherwise, wonder why I’m dating someone who doesn’t make me their everything and more. It’s probably a problem and a man begging and worshipping me isn’t love. It’s some kind of control tactic to make their emotions my leash. Their desperation for me becomes a cage.
You could be onto something, though you should probably listen to men's modern dating advice and what men are taught about women.
Popular opinion suggests if a guy is too easy she'll move on. Women do want to be sought after, but at the same time that's a bit of a toxic trait in the modern day. Has to do with the whole "nice guys finish last" which is been proven time and time again.
You're simply not in love, nor are you submissive. When women are in love or infatuated to say the least, are happily submissive. Take Med for example. She'd be willing to suck Chapo's anus and will certainly be obedient toward him and she's not even remotely close to being that type.
If or when you find a man your submissive toward, you'll be happy just having him and it would be better than having a guy who worships you.
Sounds sexist and perhaps unappealing to you, but if you find that guy and get him you'll be glad.
While it's not a bad thing to keep your partner on his toes, I hope for your sake you find a guy who'll afford you, or else you might not find happiness in a relationship. That plus you haven;t found love, you claim not to feel it so you're settling, which probably isn't a good thing for the long term.
Anytime I think I found love I get disappointed and I’m the one abused or rare occasion left. Possessiveness and begging seem to come with many other toxic traits. I don’t want the other traits I just want them to need me. I want to be the reason they find motivation. I want to have them need me so much they beg for my closeness. Then and only then do I feel loved.
I also want him to look at me kind of like how my cat looks at me. The only safe place in the world. My cat knows with me is where he’s loved and cherished and nurtured. I take great care of him and he looks up to me.
By design I don't think men are meant to be submissive. What you want is confirmation that he loves you.
Men want respect more than love while women want to be loved.
It's been said that when a couple fights, she'll disrespect him while he'll make her feel unloved. That's the takeaway and most common.
One day you'll get into some tiff or argument with your partner and you'll most likely do the same. He'll make you feel unloved and you'll disrespect him, if not that's abnormal.
While this may or may no be the case with you, it'll probably be the case with him. That plus remember, men are basically told not to be too easy, or else they'll get laid down next to those who tried and failed. I don't know if your guy thinks that way but in the modern era, he's probably not going to be anything remotely close to an ass kisser for the sake of maintaining your relationship, and he'll do it for the sake of maintaining the relationship.
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Long story short. If a man has a 10, he must NOT show how much he admires her or else he'll be prone to being laid down with the simps. On the other hand you seem to want a simp which is seen as a pitiful state of being. Don't know if you know what you want but you're certainly not in love.
