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I.... had a dream two nights ago that there was this evil woman running this mental health camp like a wellness vacation sort of thing and then it turns out the counseling was actually psychological manipulation to make you worse and go crazier and she was manipulating psychologically vulnerable people into killing themselves and becoming more mentally sick than they started with. 

And we were all staying in these dorms 2 person per dorm, super basic looking college dorm. And then during the day we had activities and individual counseling and groups, ate together, etc. it was supposed to be healing but it turned out to be all lies. 

And then the woman was trying to get us to do an activity that involved swimming through a lake with oats and wearing some sort of sweater when you finished your swim. And the oats were poison and the sweater was poison and was going to make us sick or kill us and somehow I figured it wasn’t safe and I started to catch on things weren’t right after one of the girls killed herself by jumping off the balcony window of her dorm earlier that day. 

I watched it happen. And it was pretty, weird. She was having a mental breakdown and saying weird stuff. The evil woman appeared to have just mentally broken her down to this point. 

And then I tried to escape the camp with a few others who I sort of convinced I was like “bro doesn’t this seem not right” and they sort of followed me. And we ended up having to like do something bad to get out of the camp like, poison a guard or kill someone after us I really don’t know. But after we did that we were walking along these train tracks outside the camp following them toward civilization (we were out in the middle of no where in these woods). 

And then these police came and arrested us and wanted to take us to prison for having done something bad to escape. And we were so desperate to get away from this evil camp, that we were like “yes, please, arrest us. Take us to real prison, in real civilization, out in the real world. Yes please take us there.” 

We so badly wanted to like, get out of there, that even prison in the real world was more appealing and safe compared to the bad situation we were in, in the evil torture woman’s camp. 

And then it turns out that was a trick, and the police officers weren’t real and they just took us back to the camp and we were trapped there again. 

And then we had to escape again, and we finally got to the real world in this SUV... and the real world was in shambles. Like amongst, government collapse, financial ruin, extreme poverty, disease, war, civil war, riots. It was a mess. Out there. 

And we were trying to get past the crazy riots in our car in this clogged city street full of pedestrians who were sick and spreading the diseases, and to a military camp ground that was letting in people who had money and were not sick. Like a safety zone out of the chaos. 

And the people out in this mad max world were so angry and so in poverty they were like, beating on our car and screaming at us and wanting to kill us because we could afford a car they hated us. Most people in this time could not have something like such a normal luxury of a vehicle to get them out of the situation they were trapped in, starving with nothing, and no homes, no jobs, etc. 

the world had went to ruins so, having something like a luxury vehicle, that was large. And six people inside, together. Was unusual, for this time. Most people were on their own and didn’t have, families, or packs of people anymore. And they couldn’t congregated because they were sick. But we were healthy and looked, clean, and fine. Inside our nice luxury car. 

So they beat on it until the car was so misshaped. As we drove through the crowds of masses of people, sort of terrified they were going to smash the windows and get inside and kill us. They were just so angry at us for being well off. And wanted us to die. Simply because they were angry they wanted to kill us because we represented everything that, led to their misfortune or was oppressing them. 

And I said in the vehicle, because we were worried about not getting into the military camp. I said, “we have money. And we have a kid. They have to take us because we have a kid.” And my nephew was in the back seat. 

Basically if they didn’t take us in the military compound we were going to be screwed like everyone else. But yeah. 

The world had ended on the outside and we didn’t know it because we were in that camp for so long, we had no idea what was going on out there. And that’s how the woman was getting away with manipulating us. There was no one else on the outside regulating it or checking on us. She pretended like she was talkign to our parents but they were all gone and we didn’t know it. 

Then i woke up.

I was with my gf, my sister, her man, gfs parents, and some friends on the border between what seemed like hell, it was just dark and scary behind us, trees without leaves, wind and noises. and in front of us there was something heaven, like white and cheery and happy, trees full of leaves and fruits. We are holding each others hand and crossing.

All of a sudden a very tall, faceless, dark creature with a raspy demonic voice reaches for me yelling `NO, I DONT WANT YOU TO BE HAPPY, YOU DONT DESERVE TO BE HAPPY, YOU DID NOT MAKE ME HAPPY, I DESERVE HAPPINESS MORE THAN YOU` and pulls me back and shoves me in a hole by myself.

I start crying and wake up

Tbh I wish I didnt write this I am crying again

I had a dream last night that I was in a store shopping for New Years dresses. This was in the future again and so I was with this group of people that were wealthy and that is why we were able to afford the nicer luxuries of life, concerned with New Years parties and, buying beautiful clothes for the occasion. The stores were empty, you had to come by appointment. 

So I was with a group of 9 people, and one of them was my date. And then there were several sales people. And all 9 of us were getting ready for this New Years party we were going to have soon, out on a Yacht. 

And the sales staff were showing us their nicest most interesting luxury things. They had this immaculate marble bar area, all black marble, with fancy golden lighting and large windows looking out into darkness, where they could serve us fine drinks in these golden and glass cups, with hints of rosemary it looked like hanging on the edges of the glasses and a pomegranate berry. And the staff was wearing all black suits. Very fine material, starched and ironed. 

And it was a very posh experience. The men in our group were also wearing suits. And they were so, happy. As the staff showed them this beautiful seating chair they were trying to sell them to buy for their boat. And it was sort of this strange like, bean bag, thing, but it was made entirely of sparkling material that had a holographic duo-chrome, trio-chrome shift to it. It felt softer than velvet, finer than it. But it sparkled like, as if it was glitzing and glimmering in the light like tiny pieces of glitter were embedded in it that shone so brightly. And the duo chrome shift it had to it was, green, gold, and red. So it made the most beautiful, shiny appear in the golden light as it shone down on it. And they spun it around on this spinning display they had it on, on these black shiny marble floors- which were also glittering. 

And then in the fashion area, there was golden shelves, and carpeting, and then golden framed mirrors, and a tall white concierge desk that was very sleek and minimal, and became skinnier at the base and then flat and wide at the top. And that is where you process payments on this little white tablet. 

And of the girls of the group we were looking at all the clothing hanging spaced out on the walls and in the golden racks free standing in the store. 

It was reserved just for us to be there. And the staff was very adamantly encouraging us to buy the items we were trying on, and pairing it with things, etc. And one of the items I tried on was this absolutely gorgeous dress that was brown. I can't describe it as well as I could find pictures of it. 

And then after I Tried it on, there was a layer that goes on top you wear for the ball gown part of the party sort of like a sheet, and the sheet was like this beautiful, wavy sort of, glittering material that floated in the air gently like a skirt around the base. And It was, duo-chrome and metallic once again green gold and glittering shift to it. Holographic. 

And I walked around in it and I just sort of fell in love with it and felt very pretty like a princess. There was also a jacket I thought of that was hanging in the store which the design was beautiful and I really liked. Which I think I can find an image similar to it. But I've already drawn up designs of the dress and the jacket in my iPad. 

I forgot, I have dreams of fashion a lot, of like, things that don't exist yet. And sometimes I will just have dreams where I am shopping (usually in the future) and my brain invents very interesting clothing items and stores, and strange, things to wear, essentially, very interesting designs. 

And I remember them when I wake up and sort of, strive to bring them to life by drawing them down. They're always very beautiful and sort of have this, immaculate, feeling to them that feels sort of unreal and, striking. You sort of just fall in love with it as soon as you see it because it's just so, different and strange. 

That's the benefit of, "dream-clothing" haha. I once had a dream of an Urban Outfitters that was entirely clouds. Like, the entire shop had been decorated to look like you were inside of clouds in the sky, and the floor was a mirror. And then the clothing they were selling was cloud themed, and sleep themed. Interestingly enough. So like, cloud themed pillows and blankets, eye masks, sleep lavender sprays and things like that, and then comfy stuff like slippers and jackets and cute things like that to wear. 

Another time my brain went into a fitness store and it was all swimming or work out type of gear but it was very futuristic and breathable like, high technology fabrics and very unique ergonomic designs, and a lot of it was like, neon colors and there was "netted" looking leg pieces and arm sleeves, or chest pieces, built into the shirts, pants and hoodies. 

I have these dreams probably once a week, where I just go shopping and find items in my dreams I think are really cool but my brain actually just made them up. A long with the entire shops as well, like, the shop interiors are usually pretty cool as well. I've seen makeup before as well in the dream world, really interesting makeup stores and entire collections like by Kylie Jenner that don't exist. Idk. 

I had a dream when I took a nap today that I was crawling into this space behind a movie theater again. I have these a lot, about crawl spaces. 

And they were symmetrical. So one was for my cousin, and one was mine. And I had given my cousin a gift, and I gave myself a gift. I don't know what the gift was. But mine was already in my crawl space. And then I went to my cousin's to see if she had gotten hers and put it in her crawl space but I couldn't find it. And she wasn't there. 

It was very strange like, turning up and up of stairs, very small and narrow little tunnel, entirely carpeted with like, velvet? and it just went higher and higher until it ended with a little tiny velvet door you could crawl through. 

It's as creepy and scary as it sounds when I'm crawling in it and I really don't enjoy these dreams. There's just something about them that always scares me while I'm in it.

And then I decided to go look for her but, then I was in my house all the sudden, and I didn't know where anyone was and it was completely dark. I don't know what I was doing previously or what I was about to do or what was about to happen. All I know is that, it was pitch black in the house so I was trying to hurry and turn on all the lights before something was coming or happening later that I was anticipating or that I was trying to do, I just don't know what it was. 

But I was in a hurry and I was turning on all the lights and then one of the lights wasn't working and I was standing in this dark room like, saying under my breath, "errhh oh, C'mon... c'mon, c'mon c'mon turn on. turn on. c'mon damn thing work. fuck." and then I went over to another lamp and turned it on but it was too dim. so I turned on another, but it was also dim. 

And I was trying to get the house to have light in it but I just couldn't find like any sufficient light. I was like "gotta find a light, gotta turn on the lights, turn on the lights, c'mon c'mon c'mon" and it was very hasty and, nervous. 

I don't know. lol and then when I woke up in reality I got up out of my bed and turned on the light in my real room. lol 

Had a dream last night I was walking through a beautiful neighborhood in spring and it was perfect windy weather out and the trees and grass was green and it was not too far off from a beautiful blue glistening lake, within ear shot. And I had this little woven basket and a cloth vintage handkerchief in it, which I was collecting into it berries and nuts I found on the ground and things to feed to animals

And I found a small baby squirrel and gave him one of my walnuts and I wanted to keep him as a pet but he scurried away. He was very happy with receiving the walnut.

I once dreamt a dream about being in a dream about a dream while dreaming in a dream that I was dreaming while dreaming in a day-dream like state that I dream dreaming of dreams long dreamt in other dreamy dreams from my dreams and the dreams that I dreamt before the dream that had a dream about the other dream in which another dream where I was dreaming about a dream that I dreamt a year ago with a dreamlike demeanour in another dream where I dreamt of cats.

user33313 said: 

I once dreamt a dream about being in a dream about a dream while dreaming in a dream that I was dreaming while dreaming in a day-dream like state that I dream dreaming of dreams long dreamt in other dreamy dreams from my dreams and the dreams that I dreamt before the dream that had a dream about the other dream in which another dream where I was dreaming about a dream that I dreamt a year ago with a dreamlike demeanour in another dream where I dreamt of cats.

 lol I had a dream during midterms 2009 that I was reading Descartes in my sleep and I couldn't fall asleep and I was reading Descartes in my sleep and I couldn't fall asleep, and then I woke up reading Descartes.

“As if I were not a man who sleeps at night, and regularly has all the same experiences while asleep as madmen do when awake indeed sometimes even more improbable ones. How often, asleep at night, am I convinced of just such familiar events that I am here in my dressing-gown, sitting by the fire when in fact I am lying undressed in bed! Yet at the moment my eyes are certainly wide awake when I look at this piece of paper; I shake my head and it is not asleep; as I stretch out and feel my hand I do so deliberately, and I know what I am doing.

All this would not happen with such distinctness to someone asleep. Indeed! As if I did not remember other occasions when I have been tricked by exactly similar thoughts while asleep! As I think about this more carefully, I see plainly that there are never any sure signs by means of which being awake can be distinguished from being asleep. The result is that I begin to feel dazed, and this very feeling only reinforces the notion that I may be asleep.”

user33313 said: 

I once dreamt a dream about being in a dream about a dream while dreaming in a dream that I was dreaming while dreaming in a day-dream like state that I dream dreaming of dreams long dreamt in other dreamy dreams from my dreams and the dreams that I dreamt before the dream that had a dream about the other dream in which another dream where I was dreaming about a dream that I dreamt a year ago with a dreamlike demeanour in another dream where I dreamt of cats.

 Honestly same.

I had a dream that my mom was planning on giving me 8,000 dollars and then she took it away and was only going to give me 600 (the stimulus amount from the government lol) and I was trying to explain what I was planning to do with the 8,000 but no one was really listening to me or it wasn’t going through. And I was pretty frustrated and angry, but mostly disappointed. ​

My situation: 

My dreams are all dead and buried,

Sometimes I wish the sun would just explode,

When God comes and calls me to his kingdom,

I'll take all you sons a' bitches when I go,

Let her blow.