Most definitely the shit that's come from my Algolagnia. It's even made it that much harder to relate to other people, and feeling good from perspective taking pain as if it were my own's made me look like a jerk....most algolagniacs see their actions as an active lust, not a motivational one. Patients with algolagnia could lead normal lives, enjoy normal arousal sequences, and indulge in fairly normal sexual intercourse, but when exposed to sexual pain, were unable to control their reaction. One woman described it as being unable to prevent her arousal or subsequent orgasm due to pain, even if she was not aroused when it began.The dissonance between how I imagine another's pain and what they're actually experiencing has shown me that Empathy is more about mirroring what we think we're seeing than outright understanding people like some sort of psychic emotional bridge, that it too is inherently projective.
How am I not supposed to be at least somewhat sadistic through my physical masochism when my brain's literally wired to see pain as pleasure? Even with context showing how others don't like it I still relate to their sensations wrongly at first glance, and if they want to show me a taste of what I'm missing as retaliation then it's becoming even further reinforced how great it is.I love girls in Yoga pants
There's blogs for profane individuals such as you.
So if I put you on four and pound your ass, while pulling your hair and leashing out heavy slaps across your face, you would orgasm like crazy?
