I love girls in Yoga pants
Most definitely the shit that's come from my Algolagnia. It's even made it that much harder to relate to other people, and feeling good from perspective taking pain as if it were my own's made me look like a jerk.
...most algolagniacs see their actions as an active lust, not a motivational one. Patients with algolagnia could lead normal lives, enjoy normal arousal sequences, and indulge in fairly normal sexual intercourse, but when exposed to sexual pain, were unable to control their reaction. One woman described it as being unable to prevent her arousal or subsequent orgasm due to pain, even if she was not aroused when it began.
The dissonance between how I imagine another's pain and what they're actually experiencing has shown me that Empathy is more about mirroring what we think we're seeing than outright understanding people like some sort of psychic emotional bridge, that it too is inherently projective.
How am I not supposed to be at least somewhat sadistic through my physical masochism when my brain's literally wired to see pain as pleasure? Even with context showing how others don't like it I still relate to their sensations wrongly at first glance, and if they want to show me a taste of what I'm missing as retaliation then it's becoming even further reinforced how great it is.
I love girls in Yoga pants
There's blogs for profane individuals such as you.
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it is not as present anymore than it used to be but I always had the thought to get someone addicted to heroin
I've never had that as a fetish, but I have always wanted to do something akin to MK Ultra to someone.
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I think for me the underlying yearning is experiencing a form of intimacy that is unrealistic and impossible to experience. What's yours? Control? May be the same thing.
Nah man, I want to see how the human mind echoes the damages that it's been dealt so that I may further understand the effects that images and context have on people. I want to see a PTSD-style Delusion spiral that was handcrafted by me and some editing equipment, and if it goes out of my control or otherwise turns on me it was still the way to go in the name of data collection, much like many Nazi experiments, Cult practices, Musical experiments, Graphic Design, and other sensory experimentation before me.
I want to know what would happen and use that knowledge to ask more questions.
Yours sounds more like those pimps who put drugs on the end of their dick to keep their hoes loyal, or those who use heroin and long distance transportation to keep their sex slavery harder to escape from.
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it is not as present anymore than it used to be but I always had the thought to get someone addicted to heroin
I had a boyfriend addicted to heroin for a short stint, it was nice that I was able to do anything I want to him and make him do everything I want but it's an empty experience and love. Psychological control trumps everything.
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